maybe it seems that I'm the one that gets thrown out in the trash.
again and again
maybe it's my fault, but somehow I don't really think it is.

now that I have nothing to worry about, I feel like something's wrong ( Read more... )

It's quiet today.  Silent.  The cold weather seems to do that to sound.  No one around, not even a sound.  Like the town is all asleep mid-afternoon.  I love this walk.  I almost love it even more now that it's brisk.  Maybe I love it for different reasons.  Quiet.  Silent.  Where is the world?  -Hiding in it's heated den.  Hiding from dry skin and ( Read more... )

this is strange.  this is really really strange.  it's my mistake, but I didn't want it this way ( Read more... )

so why do I even bother?
I feel alright during the day mostly, but when I sit to think it all comes crashing down.
I feel like the most oblivious person in the world.  Why does that always happen?
I just want someone who gives me the appreciation I deserve... and vis versa.
and how can I possibly function well with all of this?
These family issues are ( Read more... )

I can't express what I'm feeling right now. 

 so another year has come ( Read more... )

everything I wish I could be and how it always seems never enough.   

make me sick to my stomach

I'm just feeling sick to my stomach 

This school year will either be really fun or will be the hardest, most horrific year of my life.

People keep telling me I need to concentrate on colleges and believe me I have and I do...
but now the more I think about it, the harder it is.