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oh god
i dont know what to do with myself. i've been working on one show after the other and now i have nothing to do until febuary. im just so used to being busy day in and day out, and now that nutcracker ended yesterday i have nothing to do to keep myself busy from the side of me that im trying to run from. and its so werid now because the people i met ( Read more... ) -
waz up?
hey was up? nothin here im finally able to come home while its still day light outside. yeeaaa.! so im gonna try and call people that have tried calling me while im not there. and most deffinitly im gonna call you luaren when ever your home. i miss talkin to yeah and ill see you soon.bye
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fuck, fuck, fuck!
damn it! my fuckin cd player died today. DAMN IT! now what am i sopposed to listen to now? i mean my cd player is litteraly my bible. i dont go any where without it. i cant stand hearing my brother rave on and on about his toys and what day it is and telling me what to do. and while i walk around the neighborhood all i do is listen to my cd player ( Read more... ) -
was up bitches
hey, was up? just bored out of my fuckin mind. SOMEBODY CALL ME!! all i've one today is walk around the nieghborhood and rip cd's onto my computer. thats it. although i did talk to ashley this morning. i keep forgetting to call her, everytime i do remember to call her i end up having to do somrthing around the house. im going insane in here. i have ( Read more... ) -
i'v been stressin
my life now is nothin but stressful. i'v been haven to stay after school at harrison till around 8:00 every night since tuseday and my mind leave the subject of jo, and you have to keep a clear mind while working in the shop. since i work with saws and other dangerous tools every day till god knows when. now im stressin over the fact that mitchal ( Read more... ) -
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YOU LIEING MOTHER FUCKER! HOW CAN YOU TELL ME IN MY FACE THAT YOUR NOT GOING TO DATE ANY BODY FOR AYEAR AND AHALF, BUT YOUR DATING SOME SLUT-ASS-HORE!? I RESPECTED YOUR DECISION ABOUT US BREAKING UP SO YPU CAN GET YOUR SCHOOL SORTED OUT BUT NOW KNOWING THAT YOU LIED AND REALLY YOU BROKE UP WITH ME SO YOU CAN DATE SOME SLUT AT SCHOOL. THAT PISSES ME ( Read more... ) -
im not alright
ok im so tired of people telling me thats its going to alright! its not alright! IM NOT ALRIGHT! i cry myself to sleep every night. i've thrown up 8 times today since 10:45 this morning. i havent eaten anything for two and ahalf days, today will be three. and i have no desire to eat. my stomach hurts yea but ihave no appitite. all i do is cry why ( Read more... ) -
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so after calling me 5 times, and not getting ahold of me jo came to my house to talk to me. he wanted to clariffy to me that we were broken up, which i new, and that after school ends, for him atleast, that thats when he wants to start dating me again and that its ok for me to date other people during this time. but while the year and the half is ( Read more... ) -
i hate this
hey. today was misserable. i cant stand not being with jo. he doesnt understand how this is effecting me. why do relationships have to be like this? i dont want to have to wait an entier year and a half before i can go back out with him. and he doesnt want me to dateany body during this time period. how can he ask me that after he just breakesup ( Read more... ) -
yeah
yeah. i might not go to homecoming this year. which scuks causei was lookin forward to it. it would have been my first homecoming. why am i not goin? cause jo just broke up with me and he was my date. i cant even type correctly cause of the tears filling up my eyes. he wants me to wait for him till hes out of school so he can consintrate without ( Read more... )