i originally posted this on myspace as a blog but honestly i just felt way too exposed with it there. more strangers or people i dont know very well are more apt to see it there and i think it's really a ridiculous post. so if youre reading this, feel special cuz i feel comfortable showing you my insane side haha ... oh yeah, its from last night ( Read more... )

its disgusting but i cant stop thinking about the past 6 or months. the memories just keeping replaying themselves over and over. its a big fucking downer. i know i should just take from it and learn my lesson an im going to try but i just want it all to be gone. i want to feel normal again. i want to feel happy and fulfilled. i know im heading in ( Read more... )

So here I was feeling sorry for myself cuz I thought I was going to be sitting here by myself handing out candy for Halloween ( Read more... )

I have a job interview tommorow with some catering company by the house. how exciting ( Read more... )

im so fucking pissed off right now
my heart is beating so fast and my hands are shaking
i am so fucking done with all guys
i gave up EVERYTHING for that kid and he still lies to me
time to take care of myself
fuck it

oh and p.s
i know its doubtful but if anyone wants to come here on saturday for our halloween party, youre more than invited
ill even come to cape and pick you up and drive you back if i must

tonight my mom an i went to a n.a meeting ( Read more... )

god i am so hot for (who says that really) wentworth miller (dude from prison break)

thats all

p.s i dont even care if he has a gay name

well here i am in watertown ( Read more... )

so nick is probably leaving me and going west.
i cant say i blame him given the circumstances but it still really fucking sucks.
i need off this shitty island that holds nothing for me.
the sun doesnt even shine anymore.