sick to my stomach.
i hate this feeling.
breaking up is hard to do.

time will heal. time will heal.
i really hate waiting. i do.

this is way earlier than i expected to be awake this morning, but the phone rang at 7:45am and i couldn't fall back asleep. damn whoever called and hung up when i answered. it was either dillon or my sister. i don't know who else would call that early ( Read more... )

friday night: another failed attempt to be social.

i hate how hot weather leaves my skin sticky at the end of the day. that aside, today was such a gorgeous day. well this past whole week has been beautiful, but today i layed down on the grass underneath the shade of a tree beside the dininghall. i haven't relaxed on the cool grass in so long. probably not at all the whole time i've been here ( Read more... )

i think i've been played. oh man, that's so funny. i've never been "played" before. oh how i feel like the typical girl in television shows.

but anyway, josh& marina have been here these past couple of days and have made everything brighter for me. i'll probably write details later.

i'm too much of a dreamer.

tomorrow will be a busy day. but this week has been good so far, so i'm not afraid.

i spent most of my day doing nothing important. i went to the only class i had today for a few minutes to turn in the ten bucks for the overnight field trip saturday. then i spent some time on the campus shuttles to take some shots for my "road trip" photo assignment. it didn't turn out well at all. i was too shy to ask to take photos of people, so ( Read more... )

i feel pretty good right now. i haven't made any art in so long. (i've never felt comfortable using words like "art" and "creative" and "artistic" to describe things of my own. i feel like the word "art" nowadays is attached to some snobbish elite image. but there are no other words to describe them and art is art, i guess.) it's been well over a ( Read more... )

i haven't written a journal entry in any journal in a long time. i woke up too early this morning. i've been waking up too early lately. i guess it's good for me though. how much am i missing out on as i snooze away ( Read more... )