well today wasnt bad i guess. except i woke up at 2am and threw up again, that was grand huh? school was lame, but thats how it is. adult school was lame too, but thats how it goes. i killed on the tests tho so hah bitches. i got new music today, im so stoked on that. almost to 2000 songs on my ipod!! ok well i forgot what i was gonna write so ( Read more... )

never have i felt so out of place as i did today. it was odd, just walking all the way back to happy camp which took forever by the way, i was just like wtf am i doing here? half mile or so walk to there and back. it opened my eyes i guess. not once did i enjoy one second of the day, well except for when i was throwing rocks, that was grand. but ( Read more... )

well this weekend was just quite bad. got ditched friday night and saturday night!! it wasnt good and i wasnt in a good mood about it, but what can ya do huh? today wasnt any better, we went to wreckless and i was quiet and i threw rocks the whole time, broke a few glass bottles and walked by myself the most i could. amanda thinks i hate her, ( Read more... )

maybe we were left out for a reason last night... who knows huh? BLAH!!

so saturday...hmmm waht did i do ALL day? umm.. took a one hour nap, went to my house and back for no reason, went to get food. the rest of the time, sat on the computer talking to nicole. i think i was supposed to go to a movie or something with tiara and people, but that never happened. no one called or IMed me, its ok, i really didnt care like i ( Read more... )

it seems everyone chilled last night and seemed to have had some fun. hmm... where was i again? oh yea sitting at kevins watching one hour photo by MYSELF. doug, thanks for getting my hopes up. maybe if i was the 50 or amanda, then i would have gotten to chill. thanks again.

today was very up and down, thinking and not thinking. fell asleep through all of econ and most of english. is it really wrong to envy someone? or to wish you had what they did? well if it is wrong, i dont want to be right cuz thats how i am. listened to blue and yellow at least 30 times today, just love it. i got tons of other thoughts, or did at ( Read more... )

umm. tonight i edited hoopers video for his class, and in the process i fucked up sam and asians really bad so then i had to redo theirs too!! it was too much editing for me, espically with deadlines, but thats how i work best. i freak out, then get shit done. at about 8:46 i left tho, to skatelab, went and bought dinner (some nerds) and watched ( Read more... )

why do i feel bad again? i think i sub-consciencely bottle things up and then open the bottle in my mind. not good. i need to tlak to someone after i edit.

BLUE AND YELLOW. i LOVE that song, and yes i know that blue is yellow and yellow is blue. i feel good today!! yay!! :)