seclusion. i wish i could leave for a couple weeks, just not look. me skateboard and ipod. nothing else. no contact with anyone. but no! i gotta be stuck here where i dont want to be. im so mad at myself. i always fall for ones i can never have. one way roads everytime. well i guess i gotta make a U turn and start my way backwards down this road ( Read more... )

im so lost right now, i dont know waht to feel. i havent eaten since 8:30 last night and at 4am i threw it all up, so im running on nothing. ive got so many things to say with no one to tell them to. im going to try to skate today. i sat by myself at lunch and played soliare on my ipod. i was very antisocial today.

EDIT: i think i may eat some

umm... speachless... this happens too often.

I WANT NEED TO SKATE. how can i not be stressed if i dont skate?!? its hurts my ankle still to try and ollie.. fuck.  oh yea, april 29th, hopefully pass my test and get my LICENSE!! yay!

i feel like im in this tunnel that goes so far i cant see any light at the end. maybe theres just a wall built in the middle.

iHEARTeS95 put that on your damn buddy list!

why?

when will something go my way for once? when will i like what actaully happens to me? i guess time hold the truth huh? god damn everything. this morning my mom was like im putting tyler (my little brother) in your room after schools out for summer, i was like you gotta be fucking crazy mom!! "im moving out and i hope youre happy!" ok then i get ( Read more... )

im going to learn to skate again, i want to skate rails and gaps and stairs and everything, i CANT wait to skate!!! rode the 50 today at wreckless for a long time, did some editing, re-learned a bunch of shit in after effects, that shit is so crazy hard!! i love it. i also like nerds ropes!! im buying 48 (2 boxes) for this weekend!!! im excited ( Read more... )

I GIVE UP. i clearly cant get what i want this time cuz well, fuck it. like anyone cares anyways, its stupid.