ended up going to jeff's party. it wasnt bad i guess. lots of people there, many i didnt like. many i did like. parties dont appeal to me much since im still sXe so yea... then i guess cops got called so i had to drive somewhat intoxicated kids to in n out for food, then to asians house. asians house.. i dont know, it was ok i guess.. i wanted to ( Read more... )

i got checked out of school early in hopes of getting a good place in line at dmv. so i was only there for 3 hours, not too bad i guess, had to get my permit renewed so i can eventually drive and not rely on other people. then sat around and then got food. i dont know what im doing tonight cuz jeffs party thing is lame, im just not the alcohol ( Read more... )

umm.. i got a papercut today, it feels Fing tasty, id like to do it again!! ummm. the lady at dmv was bitter cuz she works at dmv, AND shes fat and ugly, shes gotta hate the world. i dont think i'll ever be able to drive, and only when i want to its thats much harder for me to attain. FUCK. applied to two more places for work, lets hope at least ( Read more... )

maybe if i lie to myself enough, i'll start to actually believe it and then it will be over. fuck that shit, no more.

umm.. school was eh, one of those days where nothing happens. didnt go to adult school, didnt look for a job. good day huh? doug hit a pole at the gas station, we got panda, it was ok. some lady said i was BAD person for taking so many fortune cookies!! i mean really now, a big coporation puts these things out for free, you think im gonna take one ( Read more... )

went to adult school for 20 minutes today, but hey i got a test done so thats good. i enjoy movie night at colee's. i like being around people again. i enjoy lots of things again. i like it. i like having money too. scary movies only get to me after its over, when im unlocking my door, thats what feaks me out.

umm today wasn't as bad as i thought it was going to be. last night i was completely lost and didnt know what to do, so i went to sleep, just ran from my problems. well i woke up was just fine. im sure it'll come up again but i'll try and deal with it then. bowling was hilarious for everyone cuz i had my fucked up ankle, it was great. bowled like ( Read more... )

lets see, im stuck. dont know who to talk to. i cant keep this built up tho, it'll just explode and it won't be good. FUCK.

i LOVE it, the feeling of being happy and smiling is the best thing in the world. just knowing im not throwing out fake smiles to anyone, im not lieing to anyone when i say in doing good. i FUCKING love it. who knew that trying to ollie a huge gap and getting hurt could bring so much happiness? trying that yesterday brought back so much self ( Read more... )

umm.. i fell today, sprained my ankle. yea, thats shlomburger. look


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