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Just in the mood
Sitting here waiting for my X to bring my daughter home from her grandma's house. It still feels strange being here all by myself. I miss my kids. Sure I knew the boys would grow up have their own lives but this hardly ever seeing them and then having my X have the nerve to tell me I have no business being in their lives and being concerned ( Read more... ) -
Going to England/Paris this summer!
Can't wait. Just got my plane tickets today and as soon as I get hold of my friend will make hotel reservations in Paris! Promised myself no matter what after the divorce I was going to start to travel the world at least every other year. I have alot of years to make up for having gone no where during my marriage. I want to travel the world ( Read more... ) -
The fun has begun :)
Well it is funny for years the rp world has been so important to me but now that seems to have all changed. Although no one ever knew because it has been my secret for so long I have been writing stories and plays for myself since I was 13 years old. I have never shown anyone my writing in fact no one in my family ever knew I ( Read more... ) -
Dissapointment
Oh yeah that should be the theme of my whole life. Whenever I get my hopes up too high something comes along like a pail of ice water on it and just dashes everything down to the ground. I have this friend you see someone that is very special to me that i can tell almost anything to and i think it is the same with him. Well anyhow due to the ( Read more... ) -
LOL
Seriously posting here like every 9 months is that a record? Was talking to Heazie the other day and I realized i hadnt been back here in like forever so i thought okay I'm going to check it out. Since i last wrote in it so much has happened in my life i dont even know where to start ( Read more... ) -
Haha I'm back
Well dont know why maybe it was talking to Stephen about having an LJ but i just feel like writing in this one today. I know it is pretty boring next to everyone elses but who cares it is mine muhaha as Jamie always says. Anyhow life here has gotten pretty crazy in some ways calmer in others. I finally went through my MSN list and deleted ( Read more... ) -
Twice in one week wow
Wow this is new for me remembering to actually post here in less than a month. I can't believe how damn quiet it is. With Chris and Nick both offline having the time of their life together I bet it is like dead on the net. I actually called Todd and we talked for like over an hour it was fun. He is one cool kid it was a nice conversation. Both ( Read more... ) -
Back again
Wow I just looked at this thing. It has been forever since I wrote in it. I still can't believe it has been over 4 months since Kail has talked to me. OMG what could I have ever done for him to hate me so much? I finally got to talk to him 3rd hand through George and I still don't understand anything. I'm not mad anymore just terribly terribly ( Read more... ) -
Back again
Okay I know it has been a damn month or more since I was back here but I have just been so damn pissed I didn't want to write. That was probably a major error in my part cause I feel so much better when I put my thoughts down. Anyway I feel like I am losing control of my life. Here I am a damn adult and everyone in my family tries to tell me ( Read more... ) -
2nd Entry
Okay life is getting even more complicated. Going to my so called computer addiction counseling . Trying to figure out how to give into all the demands on my life without going crazy. It is so hard I could give up the rping if I really had to but on the friends I have made from doing it? Nope I couldn't just give up on them. As much as my ( Read more... )