Something that's bothered me is how many goals I've set on here, or elsewhere online, and then just... spectacularly failed to meet them ( Read more... )

DAILY BLOGGING RECOMMENCE

I think it might help, if only a little bit, if I restart my daily progress entries. If nothing else, it'll make me pay a bit more attention to what I'm doing.

Soooo let's call this Day 1. Again.

My days after are becoming progressively more negative. I think that's largely because my binges are lasting longer. This weekend, I got real drunk, slept till about 2:00 pm (in a hotel room? because that was a good idea and completely necessary) and then went to a friend's party across the street from my hotel. I got real drunk again, apparently ( Read more... )

I'm not doing so well.

Welp. 0 for 2 on those goals I set ( Read more... )

So let's try this again.

First goal - just make it to the end of January. It's two weeks.

I'm having a hard time filtering negative thoughts about myself and what amount of hurt I might have caused other people.

Am I being too harsh on myself because I'm depressed and the thoughts are overblown? Or am I just being realistic?

I'm kind of scared of myself right now.

Goddammit.

Because of a few small purchases that didn't go through on my card for a few days, multiple overdraft fees have been charged to my bank account. So if you're keeping score at home, that's two cups of coffee and a sandwich that have put my bank account in the negative by two hundred fucking dollars.

Fuck.

I am entirely too susceptible to social pressures ( Read more... )