Part 2

[ender_williams]

I was walking on the beach alone...the hot sand absolutely burning the hell out of my feet, and my loneliness absolutely burning the hell out of my mind. Honestly, walking on a beach just made it all the more clear just how lonely i truly was, there were so many beatiful girls there, and not one of them was mine, all that i could do was walk, and

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[kellyflogue]

This is the momemnt that you know that you told her that you loved her but you don't. You touch her skin and then you think that she is beautiful but she 'don't mean a thing to me.' I spent two weeks in Silverlake, the California sun cascading down my face. There was a girl with light brown streaks and she was Beautiful...but she 'didn't mean a thing to me.' I wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking as we moved together in the dark. And all the friends that I was telling, all the playful misspellings and every bite I made that left a mark. As tiny vessels oozed into your neck and formed the bruises that you said you didn't want to fade, but they did and so did I that day. All I see are dark gray clouds. In the distance moving closer with every hour. So when you'd ask, "Is something wrong?" I'd think, "you're damn right there is, but we can't talk about it now, no we can't talk about it now." So one last touch and then you'll go. And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more. But it was vile and it was cheap.

[ender_williams]

Ahh...leslie...this is why i'm happy that i have this journal...If it werent for this journal, some of these things would be gone. This is also the first time i ever signed off as E.W.
E.W.