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Maelstrom
To finally be at ease after the anxiety of school is a masochistic victory. I am feeling my mind sinking into old habits, feeling like a regression into thought processes I've come a long way to undo. Yet, I almost miss that silly misery. My silly pinheaded thoughts from 3 years ago are all returning, but I've got a new set of eyes to behold them ( Read more... ) -
HOW BIZARRE, But I like it...
Guess it is possible to run into heart shaped situations the old fashioned way! Without dating sites, awkward messages, and misleading profile pictures. When a guy meets a girl through a mutual friend. This friend was an AMAZING wingman. Like, amazing. Numbers were indirectly exchanged. And yes, I bit first. I texted first. We met again to watch ( Read more... ) -
It's the period. I swear to god, it is.
Some girls are bitches. Some girls cry on a dime. Some girls are aggressive and nags. I am insecure like hell. And have a tendency to be moody. VERY MOODY. This is my last day bleeding, about, and.. jesus. Every little tease and joke hurt. I take them literally, seriously. No matter how much I know it's a joke.. I get hurt by it ( Read more... ) -
Nothing but giddy.
Call me crazy, but I really love it when my boyfriend boasts about me to his friends. Especially since it takes a lot more to make guy-news than it does to take girl-news. Girls want every juicy detail generally, while guys want the nasty highlights and hallmarks. He compared me to some other girl that is crushing on him that just got out of a ( Read more... ) -
Livejournal's can never be "too bored" to deal with this.
I have friends that tire of hearing me rant and ramble, and even the trusted ears that I keep close to me grow weary of my banter. But here, I can post this. I can express it now. For me to look upon for later ( Read more... ) -
Good god. WTF?
I don't think I've ever really felt like this about someone. I just.. want to see them. Be with them. Listen to them read names off of a phonebook. Anything. I miss him very much, and I know it's too soon to unload all this crazy on him all at once. They'll come out as confessions, which I am fine with. I just.. can't believe how much I like this ( Read more... ) -
Unhealthy Appetites. "It's just enough."
I want to give myself to someone. It was an accident. I didn't even know it was happening when it was under my nose, every second passing me by adding just one more piece of me to wanting to be given. It was never about attraction, not in the beginning at all. I just wanted to be a good person. But after a while he brought out the better person in ( Read more... ) -
Aha!
THAT'S IT. That's why I'm so pissy at her all the time. It's why she's crazy off-the-wall nuts and insecure and rude and harsh! It's because she's open with her feelings ( Read more... ) -
Anger and Ranting, Perhaps a confession.
I'm not sorry. But I have this problem.
I have noticed that I have an all-or-nothing law with attention. And that more often than not, if my attention is not ENTIRELY focused on the person I'm talking to, I slip out of paying attention without realizing it.
It is annoying to some, offensive to most, but that is how my brain is. It's why I insist ( Read more... ) -
Twisted Perfect, From Dust to Fog.
It was doomed. And yet this child is ruled by my world of no still. I am just a rain cloud to his unrealistically optimistic world. It may have kept him alive, but I don't need that kind of naive sensibility through Monica-colored lenses. I have had my fair share of romantics, and turning them into lunatics, and fanatics. After me, being with me, ( Read more... )