with the exception of my incredible boyfriend, life is one big pile of miserable shit. i hate money. i hate needing as much money as i do right now. i hate macy's. i hate jail. i hate the bank. i hate the dmv. i hate how dirty my kitchen is. i pretty much want to scream. and i'm done looking on the brighter side of things because they never seem to ( Read more... )

i got the job at laura mercier!

thank god.

so. i was with a boy. and was very happy. but he wasn't. and i recognized it immediately. i asked him if he was ready for this "relationship" and turns out he wasn't ( Read more... )

ouch :(

he makes me happy.

i'm still alive ( Read more... )

I'm spiraling backwards and losing myself.

what's it going to take to finally make me a happy person?

i miss them...


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last night went well.

hunter and i ventured out to the city and met up with chelsea. we went to a cute little bar, and typically, i spent all of my money on fancy drinks. i met a few nice people. i got to see dee, which was wonderful. all in all, it was a great way to go about entering my "adulthood". today i'm 20.

my birthday is soon. i suppose it's not too big of a deal... to me, at least. if anything, i just sound a whole hell of a lot older. which is a nice reminder of how i'm doing nothing with my life. i need to know what i want to do with myself and i feel as though i'm running out of time. i've experienced different places. the best of places, in fact ( Read more... )