EP...I don't think I have anything left to say about this place. It was good to see my family and it has all been too short, but it's time to go back to real world. I got hired at Saltgrass and every shift I show up for discourages me more and more. I haven't waited tables in a year, I'm rusty at it and I haven't been able to learn the menu with ( Read more... )

I've spent my whole life wondering about the 50% that is my legitimate father, and what attributes of mine are directly related to him...every day I wonder more and more, "where did I come from?". The truth is, at the end of the day, nothing petrifies me more than the unknown of my biological father. I know that once I know the truth, it will ( Read more... )

Can't sleep....its still early tho, even if I have been up since 7-_- meh. This is usually when I smoke some more...but I don't feel like turning off my brain just yet. I started reading anime again, and it's great, and I love cracking up to myself like a weirdo...and yet it always has a way of fucking with my mind when the story pauses til the ( Read more... )

Merh. I'm so sick of working so much. We've been drinking on the clock all week. It started out with a mess-up margarita that we didn't wanna throw away, then next day a Sam Adams and another margarita that ended up getting some gummy bear shot mixed in, then the guys brought absinthe and jäger from home and mixed sodas in them, and today I got my ( Read more... )

It's Gilbert's birthday today. Finally 21. I had a bullshit idea of going to Austin and going to 6th before midnight, I was pretty sure they weren't gonna go for it. But they jumped on that train so fast! Lol. So long as I drive home >.< here's to a good time...

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I can see depression on the horizon, waving at me like an old friend I haven't seen in years. It's missed me...and I'm feeling like I missed it too...its name is Failure.
I think I've been dropped from all my classes due to absences. When I registered there was still 3 sushi chefs, then there was only 2. Okay, difficult but still within my range of ( Read more... )

My summer break is almost over, and I'm do ready to go back to school and back to the daily grind and exhaustion. I haven't been able to sleep at all without all that extra work and stress, it's like everything about my life has to be backwards from everyone else. I sleep better when I have shit to do all the time and when I finally get my vacay I ( Read more... )

I've been fighting for months to fit in. At work, at the bees, with Tessa's girlfriends...I just can't. It was tessa's b-day today, we went to a bar and shit and the guy she liked left without saying anything, what a douche. So I was having a really good time dancing then heather shows up. Biggest gossip queen in the world. Whatever I think, I'll ( Read more... )

So much hw to do...I'm so unfocused. I'm playing with fire and I know it. I can almost feel my work stability spiral out of control to crash and burn before it happens. It's exciting and foolish.....

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I feel the adderall pumping through my body, keeping me awake but the alcohol keeps me from so much as getting up and hitting the bowl to go to sleep. I'm single again but jake doesn't want to move out. And I don't have much of a reason to kick him out, he legally lives here and shit. This week has been one of the most eventful in my life. So much ( Read more... )