It doesn't matter anyway. I am a hypocrite and a bitch. My views are stupid, and I shouldn't press them on you. There are no standards, and I am delusional for believing in mine. All I try to do is buy people's love just like my dad. People should do whatever they want, it doesn't matter if it hurts someone else. Who are we to be the emotion ( Read more... )

Well, I have been here four and a half years. i have walked through the same doorways and hallways. Seen the same nameless faces, eaten lunch with stragners, and sometimes attended the regulated 9:40-10:10 obligations. I have survived dust storms, cold biting wind, and heartache. I have grown and matured, loved and let go, and created a home for ( Read more... )

"Things change whether you like it or not." This is true. Some things change for the better and others for the worse. Everyone chooses for themselves how to perceive it You have changed, and I miss the person that I loved. Who you were is only a figment in my mind, something to smile and remember. You would now say that everything is a ( Read more... )

How dare you tell me of honesty? How dare you tell me of Truth? How dare you make me doubt every part of myself that I see as good? How dare you make me feel worthless? And yet, you do ( Read more... )

I look at all the familiar lights, but they all look different. I rub my thumb over my new callouses, and I brush a fallen eyelash off my face. I hope he didn't think I was crying. The silence was awkward at first, but I grew to enjoy it. We hadn't seen each other in awhile, and that's what happens when new people come into his life. I am left ( Read more... )

I miss losing myself in the moment. Hearing your voice but not really listening to your words. Being embraced by the now and your smile sweeping me away. I want to watch the train go by and the planes fly over. I want to feel the wind go through my fingers at 100 miles an hour. I want to drink and listen to music and be quiet. I want you to ( Read more... )

I didn't want to skip church, but I did anyway so that I could finally get some sleep. I work and go to school all the time, and it allows me no time to sleep. It felt so good to sleep in, and now I have gotten so much accomplished today. However, don't you feel like America misses out on something? We push and push to work until the day we can ( Read more... )

I am alone. In the midst of people who wear the same name as me: Christian. I am in a world full of "Christians" no more willing to give their lives for someone, than they are willing to give their sports cars to the homeless. They make me sick. I am a sad excuse for a Christian, but at least, I'm not a "Christian."

As usual, I am wrong........
"I love you always and never."

Somewhere along the way, I became bitter and jaded. I lost my sense of wonder. I got completely absorbed in my own mellodramas. I didn't see the beauty in the world, but I once again have been brought from the depths to embrace life. I can wake up in the morning with a smile on my face and feel the sunbeams kiss my eyelids. I can listen to the ( Read more... )