Guess Marilyn's right. 
It doesn't matter if it waste a year in my life because I must seize the day by doing something that I love. Living a life with no regrets, a life with people who may be ugly however comfortable to be with. Why continue this?

But the funny thing is... 
If I leave, I won't have the guts to bid goodbye. It's too hard for me

 I don't know if I want to continue pursuing fashion after I graduate from EVD.

All I want to do is to work behind the stage of a runway show, be a stylist. I know if people were to read this, they will go eeee because my dressing is not that impressive. I just people to see my work.. 

 
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 I SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY REFUSE TO GO. 
OKAY CHOICE 1, GO AND SUCK IT UP. THEN BE EVEN MORE UNHAPPY. 
CHOICE 2, DON'T GO AND DO MY WORK AT HOME, THEN PEOPLE WILL BE ANGRY WITH ME FOR NOT TURNING UP. 
SO WHAT NOW? URGH! WHY DID I EVEN JOIN THIS?

THINK PRIS. 
CAN'T BELIEVE I AM STRESS BECAUSE OF STUPID THINGS LIKE THIS. 

 OMG I DO NOT WANT TO GO TO SENTOSA TOMORROW! I HAVE A SHITLOAD OF WORK TO DO AND I DON'T WANT TO BE IN THE CROWD. I JUST WANT TO STAY AT HOME AND BE WITH MY FAMILY WHO DOESN'T MAKE ME FEEL SHIT ALL THE TIME. 
MY LIFE JUST SUCK. I can't complain about this on facebook or twitter because people might turn against me and think I have some serious ( Read more... )

 Can't move on from P1's hang over. Having troubles managing my time because my body and mind refuse to stay together and get some of my work done. One good example, right now I just watched 2 episodes of my super sweet world class and 1 episode of gossip girl. Speaking of which, OMGGGGGGG I can't believe Blair and Dan kissed. That is like me ( Read more... )

People don't understand why am I always not able to raise my self esteem as high as those girls out there. Sometimes, I wish I don't look this way, I wish I look like my parents. I am so sick due to the fact that, from young, no one knew the fact that I am my parent's child and not like what others mocked me as... Maid. Why am I so different? Am I ( Read more... )

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 Through this time, I witnessed the ugly side of people and I really loathe experiencing it. This is one of the reason why I do not ever want to enter the real world where people gets even uglier. It's really horrible and tiring to go through pain like this. Maybe this is just one of the things I have to pay in order to earn a living ( Read more... )

 Still figuring it out my own identity while I am still on my way through the most hectic period ( Read more... )