There's so much inexplainable rage. At myself, at the world, at those I don't understand. I want to tear out my heart, throw it on the table, and scream "There! Have the fucking thing! I don't need it." And wander off for my last few fleeting moment. I am all but dead. 

Right off the face of the planet, not to be heard of again.

My youtube experiment is going amazingly. Turns out people are digging the LP / Vlog hybrid I have going. I don't think I'm anything special, but other people seem to. So yeah. As far as LP's go, I've covered Sonic 2, in the midst of finishing Diddy Kong Racing, and going to do Breath of Fire 3 after that. That one's going to be quite long, as the ( Read more... )

So I've for the moment abandoned here. I've started a new project. I realized that this method of communication is flawed for why I once reached out and met many of you. This way, you learn how I type, and in a roundabout way, you learn how I speak. But you don't know how I act, how I look, where I am, nothing. So I started something new a few ( Read more... )

Way to go dude, way to go.

To want to move forward and be held down ( Read more... )

I've been wondering what to put here, for the two, maybe three people who read this. I am so enthralled with everyone elses lives, they all seem so wonderful and interesting in comparison to mine. I feel like an ant. Like how no matter what I do, in the large picture of things it won't really matter. I mean, I've become what I tried so hard to ( Read more... )

So it turns out learning Japanese is much harder than I had first imagined. I was hoping I'd be able to get it doen much faster. Not happening. I can catch the odd word and phrase in my anime's now though. Once I get the verbal language down I want to give the written a try.

Crow wishes to destroy you
Crow knows it is better than you
Crow knows you will amount to nothing
Crow knows you already are nothing
Crow will not repay its debts to you
Crow is not your brother
Crow never has nor will have a brother

Crow is not pleased

Buzzing under my skin, these doubts burrow ( Read more... )