is having to wait your whole life for it.

These past few days have been some of the most intense of my life for examining myself and my internal mechanisms. A lot of very bad things, guilt and problems, and unresolved anger that has been such an underlying cause for my mental methodology. I know and admit I have hurt a lot of people on my road of blinding adhering to my own stubbornness ( Read more... )

Two of the earliest memories I have from my youth are also the most formative, and spring from talks with my mother. By talks, it should be noted this was not a two way conversation, but her instilling her own cynical wisdom on a child who was little more then a bothersome reminder of a husband she had rid herself of. In a couple of the few private ( Read more... )

I find my way back to this particular graveyard of a journal due to a lack of anywhere else to go or talk. Somehow over the course of time since I used to post here, I traversed to all four corners of the U.S., and wound up in Africa. I am not so sure my choices were wise, but that can much be said about all my life thus far ( Read more... )

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I find the new applications of old words by some of the modern counter culture (in particular, that of the online communities) mildly disturbing. Where once geek referred to someone obsessed in pages of code in VI, hacking your kernel, conversing freely in ANSI sequences or binary, nowadays it seems to be applied to any Dick and Jane who is ( Read more... )

"You should reach the limits of virtue
before you cross the border of death"

Tyrtaeus of Sparta
c.630 BC

"Experience and suffering
are the mother of wisdom."

Alcman of Sparta
c.625 B.C.

"It is not just that the human spirit reacts directly and beyond all argument to a story of sacrifice and courage, as a wine glass must vibrate to the sound of a violin. It is also because, way back and at the hundredth remove, that company stood right in the line of history. A little of Leonidas lies in the fact that I can go where I like and ( Read more... )

In the beginning ARPA created the ARPANET ( Read more... )