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[envinyata]

In truth, you like the pain. You like it because you believe you deserve it, and the fact that you're putting yourself through pain means that you are doing what you, by all rights, ought to do. You're doing something right. It's hard to describe how these two things can take place in the same mind: the arrogant, self-absorbed pride in yourself for

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[tiane]

what did she say??

[envinyata]

she didn't, really. she got a bit of amusement out of the part about western culture made manifest...said the splitting bit made a lot of sense, and we talked about that for awhile...i don't think she realizes exactly how much it affects me, because it's not just -that- split, i'm at war with myself on nearly everything, you know? but...maybe it made things a little more clear to her. i don't know.

[tiane]

i hope it did.
do you ever feel silly describing yourself through someone else's words?? i mean, so often i want to go and play my counsellor a song and go: this. this is how i feel. but i feel like i shouldn't.. i don't know..

[envinyata]

i definitely feel silly. it's why i don't do it often. because...then she asks all kinds of questions i don't want to answer. i don't like talking to myself; it's easier to talk through someone else's words...but she always asks me anyway.

[lady_e]

I need to read wasted again I see.
I think the same of her book, she has words for my thoughts that I didnt have.

[asofterversion]

I think I'll have to read that book.

[rowanna]

I hate how close some of your posts cut to the bone, but i guess i should thank you for it really. ::slight smile::
I need to read it too *ponders if the library has it*.. i know it wont but its worth a try. ::smiles::
xxx

[isaura]

<3