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Like Breathing Was Easy
I am the worst sleeper in existence, especially the night before a big day. It causes me great anxiety, which furthers pushes sleep out of my reach. And it becomes this vicious cycle I can't knock myself out of for months. That coupled with the aches, the pains, both external and internal, and I've fallen back on to old addictions. I'm right back ( Read more... ) -
Little Morning Failures
There are things that I'm not good at. Like making pancakes. Or love &relationships. -
Summer Rains Fall Fast
On a cool August morning after a few rainshowers ( Read more... ) -
I Want To Hide The Truth
I am the Queen of distraction. I'll try anything to take my mind off of my at-the-time obession, even that which is self-destructive or out-of-bounds. This time it was a bartender with a thick build and cloudy blue eyes. I remember he had harsh lips and callous-covered hands. His voice was smokey. I sat for hours before, watching him work the crowd ( Read more... ) -
Heart's A Mess
Pick apart ( Read more... ) -
You Always Break The Kindest Hearts
I just finished watching Blue Valentine and I'm emotionally wrecked. -
July Burns Slow
My lungs feels like they're being squeezed in a hot fist and I can't catch my breath. I keep telling myself that I have to sleep on it, that I have to clear my head. My head is so full of noise, though. Underlying meanings and several thousands truths are coming at me. The "what ifs?" hadn't ever crossed my mind, but after tonight, I'm left with ( Read more... ) -
This Silence Is Deafening
There was a speck of hope on Saturday, but it didn't last long. I'm torn in half. Half of me feels an odd mixture of broken and numb, while the other half of me is very calm and rational. I didn't want a relationship with him, and that's exactly what I'm getting. Be careful what you wish for, ladies and gentlemen. I should have learned that lesson ( Read more... ) -
More Than I Thought Could Exist
My head felt heavy today. I have had a headache, right behind my eyes, that no matter what I do, I can't shake it. I feel myself approaching a crossroads with DC and the more I try to talk out my options, the more torn I feel. Everyone has an opinion of what I should do, and all of them are relevant, however I haven't heard the right one yet. I ( Read more... )