Today I wrote "I'd rather sing than fall in love" or something on my profile. Right after I fell asleep, which is strange if you know me. I'm never able to sleep during the day. I had a dream where an old friend came to visit me and she brought her 19 year old sister along. Her sister was slow. They would repeatedly say that, that she's not ( Read more... )

we like to pretend the future is ours
make my dream unselfish, it's the only way it'll happen

There are clinging creatures as I run
From my death, into the sun

I'm dying but
If you'll kindly step behind me and push
Or drag me by the arms
I'd love to take you with me

If you say you are going to change:
Whether you need a fresh start
Whether you feel like aspects of your personality could go and not be missed
Whether you need improvements
If you feel you need it..
Don't baby it, fucking do something about it. It won't come by itself.

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Clothes and sunglasses and belts, mmmm mine.
ring
ring
ring
knock knock knock
be my friend for real. let's fall in love for pretend.
dancing and singing and kissing and exploding onto televisions.
I want to be a handfull for some overwhelmed little chick
ore wo nani yori mo hoshii hito

I got my voice back. I'm getting a lip ring. I don't want to die. I might quit my job. I wrote that fucking paper. I'm making plans for singing after graduation.
Someone, think of a good stage name for me. I need one. I had "Eon" but.. I'm not sure it fits me anymore. Something cute and pretty and coooool. Real cool. Help. Signed, Tyler.

So drastic and so dramatic

Forget Japan I think. I think I'm staying. I'm quitting my job. I'll finish school and then I'm going to sing. I'm going to buy new clothes and go crazy for a while so I don't go crazy for real. Should be fun.
Em - Thanks for helping me come to this decision
Gina - That vid helped as well.
Amy - Help?

I just lay in bed, that's all. But at least I'm thinking. It seems as if the Japan thing could easily fall through and I'll end up graduating with no where to live and no job. If that happens, and if I find a place to live, I guess I'll teach myself guitar and start singing at clubs. Fuck it. If I did anything else I'd just regret not being able to ( Read more... )