He's gone so often I made the mistake the other day of saying I'm single. It was to my parents up here but still. I don't feel single, but I can't help thinking I am. My life right now is soooo weird. Married no husband at home. Bills are all still getting paid but I have no real job. So much to be grateful for really ( Read more... )

That's it, a sigh. I just had an excellent interview for a teller position at a bank that's five minutes from my house. It went really well and I will find out by Monday if I got the job. I'm very optimistic right now. I plan to keep looking during the rest of the week until I hear back. I'm going to canvas all the local librarys in the hopes that ( Read more... )

I'm looking for a new job. So many things to do, so much time for them to be done in. Trying to figure out what I need to do and what order to do things in is a challenge. My former employer has asked me to come back for a few afternoons each week until I find something more permanent. It's strange to be able to sleep in and not to have things so ( Read more... )

So this last Tuesday I was told that I got laid-off. That was my last day at work supposedly. Phil was gone so I was left to the house all alone and got started on a job search. My feelings so far are mixed. I have applied for student aid, in the hopes of getting a grant to go back to school. I have also applied to a few jobs. It's hard because I ( Read more... )

After this weekend I was terrified that I would not be able to function with him gone again. I am blissfully relieved that this is not the case. I am handling this round much better because I am in control. No tears, no panic attacks (this attacks have been minor, mostly involving tears and freaking out about him not coming back.) just moving on ( Read more... )

I am still not feeling well. But still work is good. I am really enjoying helping my boss create a corporate file system for the company. I think I truly love filing. Funny how that works. You see files can't yell at you or get mad at you for things that you didn't do. People tend to do that ( Read more... )

It's funny how even though Phil's been in town this week it hasn't been any easier for me. Not that I'm struggling with the same things when he's here that I struggle with while he's gone. Just that the challenges are different. Knowing that he's here this week, but he'll be gone next week. Last night we had a really good conversation about the ( Read more... )

Last night as I prepared for bed I couldn't help thinking to myself. "It's Only Monday?!?" sigh. Oh well ( Read more... )

He's gone. Oi I love my man to much, I hate to be left behind. But this time he'll be back on Thursday. That makes me feel a little better. Even though he'll be going to Oregon almost as soon as he gets back. Grr to him. I want him to go play but it's hard to be patient for my turn ( Read more... )

I spent all of last night at my parent's house. It was lovely, there was food and good conversation. And I got to watch a couple episodes of a show that Phil doesn't like to watch. Tonight I hope to clean as much of the house as I can. Make bread. Really get going on the second chapter of my book (I'm past my writer's block). And burn a copy of the ( Read more... )