i feel like ive lost something. im not sure. i also feel like its leadin me to be who im not. im just tired. i want answers. all ive got is questions though. nothin ever gets answered. im always left wonderin and wanderin alone...

-see you space cowboy-

last night when i went into my room i looked at my night light (which is a 40 oz bud light bottle filled with xmas lights) and it went out. i could explain it off as coincidence but it made the night worse than it already was...

we are all human.

Things have changed for me, and that's okay
I feel the same, I'm on my way, and I say
Things have changed ( Read more... )

i was walkin along in the dark. the only light was centered around my feet. i could see the path i walked along but nothin else. i could hear voices all around me. some seemed to chasin while others lead the way well infront of me. eventually i came to a cliff. i could hear the voices behind start to catch up. i could also hear the ones ahead of me ( Read more... )

yesterday started out fairly decent. round 7, ekah called and i talked to her till i got off work and got home. then she called back a bit later and we talked to another hour till kendra wanted me to call her. id actually talked to her in so long so i let ekah go and called. bout an hour later, when i started to feel weird bout the turn of ( Read more... )

so... saturday was an interestin day for me. since i had to work from 6 p.m. saturday to 6a.m. sunday i decided to try and sleep really late so id be able to stay up. i still had to mow my yard though so got up with plenty of time to do so. while i was out mowin this woman randomly walks up my driveway, which is on a busy highway, and asks if i can ( Read more... )

i dont even know where to start this post. i have so many things on my mind but its all jumbled together. i think the fact that ive not ate anything since monday afternoon (and dont plan on eating anything either) is part of the problem. i did have a lack of energy but that was only for a little while after i got up. id say im fine now but as i ( Read more... )

i was talkin to my grandmother when i realized that all of her grandchildren (me, my brother, my sister and my cousin) all have tattoos. whats weird is that my sister and my cousin have more tattoos than me or my brother. i figured the boys would have more than the girls. oh well. ive been doin some research on my family tree as well. the ( Read more... )

im tried of hearing  subways 5 dollar footlong commericals. ever since ive seen those commericals ive said it sounds like a gay porno where a struggling economics major has to use his knowledge to go out and create demand for his footlong spicy iltalian by chargin only 5 dollars... STOP IT SUBWAY! IM TRIED OF YOUR GAY REFERENCES ( Read more... )

i hate when i get like this... filled with so much hurt. i want to lash out at others. my hands tremble as i fight for control. y does it have to be like this. y so much hurt, so much misunderstandin, so much pain... so much lose.

-see you space cowboy-

ok ill go ahead and say it, im sick. i have no idea whats wrong with me either. for some reason i just dont feel the need to eat yet i still get hunger pangs. when i do eat though i get sick to my stomach. its caused me to lose 30 lbs over the past month... i enjoy that but the fact that i have almost no real energy (or rather i tire easily) and ( Read more... )