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Memories
Thanks to the Wayback Machine, I got to see my old Open Diary account (the second one I made because my mom joined and I deleted my first one immediately). I think I started the second one in 2005. This is right after I had to move back home from college. Right before I began working at a bookstore. Sent the form in to reclaim my account. I don't ( Read more... ) -
Late Nights
Late nights lead to foggy days. Foggy days leads to self loathing and apathy. A hangover of middling proportions but enough to knock me off my axis. Had a lot planned for the weekend and today, but it looks like I'm not going to hit it. Maybe I need a new system of order for the days when I'm tempted to ignore it. -
Tooth Pain
Never understood why my tooth pain is worst at night. It'll be a little twinge of pain around 10pm and then the pain sometimes radiate outwards to that small section of my jaw. Wish I could afford to go to the dentist ( Read more... ) -
Midnight Thoughts
Whenever life is too much for me, I check out into my imaginary world. This happens a lot because I tend to notice way too many things. Things I cannot change. Things that are distasteful to me. Things that I don't like about myself ( Read more... ) -
Proud Day
Yesterday I unclogged my bathtub drain. Nothing major to most people, but to me it was almost a herculean effort. Usually I ignore the problem and adapt to the problem instead of solving it. Especially when I'm feeling a bit down. Not this time. Instead of imagining how bad the issue was, I just looked up how to unclog it without chemicals and ( Read more... ) -
It's been awhile...
The past few months have been up and down emotionally. Some days I'm mindful and in the zone, while other days I struggle to keep focused on a simple task. At least I could boast about making some strides in recognizing when the MD begins and being able to stay focused on the present and not dwell in the past or imagining the future. Tried to keep ( Read more... ) -
Tablet Fun
I do not regret getting this tablet. I switched back to flip phone and used my super old smartphone to browse while not being near my desktop. It's a cheap tablet and I'm a simple woman. I can read e-books, browse the internet and play mobile games. I was pleasantly surprised by the free six months without a subscription to the Washington Post, my ( Read more... ) -
Exercise Madness!
So I haven't exercised regularly since I stopped working retail in 2013. I worked as a barista, and on the good days I brisk walked to the subway to and from work. Also living in DC, there were safe opportunities to walk to the library or the grocery store. I'm glad they are beginning to add sidewalks where there were none before where I am living ( Read more... ) -
Forgot to add...
So far I need to find a way to brainstorm rising actions for my stories in a way that doesn't trap me in a specific corner. They tend to get to the point of meandering. It just dawned on me that I need to just see it as a challenge and see where it goes. To just to edit things for the revision stage of the process. I'm too impatient for my own good -
My body is sore and I like it
The first few days of the New Year I have spent exercising. Tomorrow is my break day. Need to let my body heal up.
The soreness is thrilling to me. Why? As a former athletic young adult, I miss the burn. It reminds me of pushing pass my physical boundaries and reaching a potential I didn't know I had within me. I started the workout plan in hopes of ( Read more... )