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i'm alive.
it's been a hot minute since i've updated this, huh ( Read more... ) -
miss misery
ugh. so andy and i are kind of friends but i'm basically in love with him. and miserable about it. ugh. i hate this crap. -
compare where you are to where you wanna be
all i want to do tomorrow is cuddle with my cat and listen to '30s music and read deb caletti and maybe finish rereading harry potter 5 and maybe watch some movies and not talk to anyone that lives outside of my house. but i will be going to work at 9 for a stupid kid's birthday at the movie theater and i'll be dealing with stupid ass andy drama ( ( Read more... ) -
ughh
Things went from bad to worse to okay (I guess) with Andy ( Read more... ) -
stop this train
I've been a mess lately- seriously, a downward spiral- and it only just started getting better. Long story short, I got word that Andy only thinks of me as a friend and I was crushed and falling apart and in physical pain over it. He's been giving me guitar lessons once a week so I tried to keep up with that but I just couldn't. The whole thing was ( Read more... ) -
adele is like rose hips on my wounded heart
I've been a walking shitshow the past week or so. On and off depressed and upset and angry and indignant. It's whatever. Yesterday was really bad though and I had a panic attack and there was sobbing and heaving and hyperventilating and shit. I don't know if it's just my anxiety or it's shit going absolutely awful with Andy but I need to just chill ( Read more... )