I need to breathe. I feel so destitute from emotional warmth. Really just want to shut my eyes and drift away but then again, I can't complain. I have not the authority to complain. My problems are petty and arguably small. They don't genuinely validate what I'm feeling. What I feel is nothing compared to those who lament over worser prospects of ( Read more... )

I don't care if you are my God Mother ( Read more... )

割れた心があるため：

お前。

待っている。

喧嘩（けんか）。

無聊（ぶりょう）。

不動（ふどう）。

かいけつ：

Stop trying because really, you're not even making an effort.

Stop waiting & cultivate patience.

Stay calm and in control.

Keep self preoccupied.

Move around.

..

Actually, 'to not give a fuck' is a wayyyyy better solution.

I should learn to become detached like you
:)

.. lol. you will never know of this.

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昨日、午前七時に電話ケイタイに通して、「ビ・シー・イ」のちょうさけっかをもらった ( Read more... )

This was rushed.

I just grasped the cruel reality of relationships: they won't always last forever.

I want it to last forever but i know it won't.

Relish it while it's still happening, i keep telling myself or rather's his advice of 'living in the moment'. And savour every small thing. My little saying of relief. Both wise to my sanity.

I know some ( Read more... )

I've decided to leave my other blog. I'll still check updates and such however If I ever want to write something personal, I can't. I have too many that are watching. It'd be too tedious for them to read what's going in my mind, and all that jazz. Plus rarely anyone comments ( Read more... )

of some sort ( Read more... )

I can feel that surge of heat again when I think about someone...that I like ( Read more... )

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I really don't understand myself. Like i'm on the verge of obsession. Why do I waste my time doing such things? Why do I care?
There's nothing between the two. Nothing. So why won't this obsession abate? I guess it's just girly-jealousy. I'm seriously such a fag. I'm so nice to her, to her face, yet I scrutinize her behind her back. God, I'm such ( Read more... )

 And another 4 days til school begins again. I've been feeling quite blue the past few days. The fact that parent teacher interviews are on the 2nd day of term 2, really shits me nonetheless. It's just a few words, you hear them and then it's over. I really should harden myself in the next few days ( Read more... )