so I got into hampshire college, which is where I would love to go. I got waitlisted originally, but I sent them a suck-up letter and some extra stuff 'cause I really wanted to get in, and I did. bad news is we probably won't be able to afford it because it is so expensive, but we're gonna try to talk to financial aid people ( Read more... )

note to self: in the future, try not to get involved, even if it's only in a small way, with a boy who has more head-problems than you. even if you think you can help him, it's going to start off being crazy and probably continue being crazy and then you'll hurt, and not know what to do, and then it'll seem like everything is okay and then it will ( Read more... )

UP-DAT: i'm eighteen.

more later, really

( memememe )

i'm in all kinds of love with all kinds of people and i don't know what to do.

so my computer is somehow broken. let's just say i'm really angry and not at all happy about it and i hope it gets fixed soon. i've already poured money into a new part and that doesn't seem to be helping. fuck.

edit: hey, it works. and my idea, too! woot. but, you know the feeling. I outwitted ben the computer expert. :P

When I first had the repeating dreams, it believe it was when I woke up that I realized. In the dreams, my mother was alive - vividly alive. I don't know how much of her was my memories, and how much of her was me filling in the blanks. And I experienced the dream, and it was when I woke up, the traces and images of the dream still swirling through ( Read more... )

uh, real quickie here. we have to put down max, our oldest dog. he was 12? 13? I'm usually a year off... but he did live a nice, long life for a Lab. he was getting blind and he had a seizure yesterday and a seizure today and it took him a while to recover... his back legs were failing, all his joints were arthritic... so yeah, his time to go. ( Read more... )

would someone like to tell me where the hell i am ( Read more... )

i don't know, i don't know, i don't know. i don't know anything and i'm still trying to keep on track. i go through stages of being better and being worse. trying to solve my main issue has been way too difficult... and i don't even know if it's at an end now, but i'm going to try to concentrate on other things, make myself happy with other things ( Read more... )