i hate to be a party pooper and say things still suck, but they do. taking the SATs tomorrow; hopefully I'll do better. I still don't know what's going on with stupid boys and it's still driving me crazy. I just want to be OK in the end and I'm scared right now because I'm not. doing my best to get through every day... sleeping a lot... mrf. I did ( Read more... )

i've lost my identity ( Read more... )

I have a cold. I rarely get colds. I only get colds in winter. My nose is stuffy and it is pissing me off ( Read more... )

so, said anxiety attack was a prelude to something happening, which I'll discuss in depth later.

anyway, I feel like I've hit bottom again, basically. and the whole school year to go through... it's going to be so difficult. but there are good things. i'll make it eventually. I'm just so sick of struggling.

I was doing okay until today. had an anxiety attack. hopefully it's because I have a lot going on, and school just started, and stuff like that. I don't want to fall back into the horribleness of last year, is all. if you talked to me, thank you so much. I really appreciate it. I am thinking of going back to therapy, but I have to meet someone else ( Read more... )

ok, it's done. ben and i aren't together anymore. it had to be done but it sucks.

today was awful, mostly because i was bored all day. and when i did start to get upset, like now, not only am i bored but i don't feel like doing anything. gah.

at least i'm getting out of the house tomorrow for some time, with people.

--YOUR FULL NAME IS ( Read more... )

9 days until ben leaves ( Read more... )

damn. my therapist is on vacation. she should be back in a couple days though. my fault for doing that stupid delay thing that I do and not going to her for what, over a month and a half now ( Read more... )

so since I can't sleep... I just installed my new keyboard and mouse. wireless. I got spoiled rotten. and a new printer. :D omg, this keyboard is amazing. so quiet... so smoooth... wow.