Anxious to get the fuck out of here and get on with my life!

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So I know I just posted but I feel the need again. I'm tired today. Really tired. I don't know what it is. Just out of it today. I feel like I value others in my life more than they value me. As in, they are vital cog in my life, yet I am just an interchangeable piece in their today. Not vital to anyone's tomorrow. And that hurts a little, ( Read more... )

I'm okay. I really am. Everything is A-OK, hunky-dory. I had a rough few days. Feelings of being tossed aside and my feelings counting for less compared to others. My moms would be 51st birthday is coming up here on the 16th, as well as the 7 year anniversary of her death on the 28th. It almost seems unbelievable. Unbearable. Seven years ( Read more... )

... of a madman I suppose you could call this.

I'm not as dumb as I look you know. Which might be a bit of an understatement considering how fucking dumb I look sometimes... I don't have a college education, although, I would like one. The problem lies with me not giving a shit really about anything I can get a degree for enough to want to do it ( Read more... )

I want a baby. I really do. I know it sounds completely moronic given my current situation, but I still want at least 2 more children. I love them to death and I love when they're babies... Unconditional love at it's finest, so dependent, yet they don't need much. No high priced fancy toys, no designer clothes, no bullshit. Your love and ( Read more... )

Well not really. From the get-go today its been a really bad day ( Read more... )

Or at all I suppose. I had a terrible day mentally. And it's kind of funny. My eyes kept welling up, but I never seemed to be able to let it loose. Twice while I was driving to get dinner, which, by the way, makes it very difficult to see at night ( Read more... )

So I've Been doing a lot of thinking lately which is why I haven't posted much. I have been much too afraid of what I might write. Silly, seeing as though that's what this is for ( Read more... )

Not like I have any self-esteem or confidence to spare. They don't sell that shit by the bucket over here. I can't afford to be brought down.

Looks like someone fucked you up with a pot of coffee...