Today, February 28th, 2005, is two years since a wonderful woman passed away. I called Steph a while ago to see how she was doing, and unfortunately she's not doing well, but not because of what day this is. I'm not going to get into the reasons, I only have one question: What happened to my friends? We were all so close, and then everything ( Read more... )

Well, I haven't written in a while. There's been stuff to say, but I have neither the energy nor the ambition to actually write it. I wish I cared.

All I have to say is this:
I got my hopes up again, and I was proven wrong... again. No more effort will be given from my half; I'm finished. And I mean it this time. I suppose I meant it all the other ( Read more... )

the morning is dead
and the day is, too
there's nothing left here to meet me
but the velvet moon
all my loneliness i have felt today
it's like a little more than enough
to make a man throw himself away
and i continue
to burn the midnight lamp
alone
can't ya hear me callin' you?
so lonely
gonna have to blow my mind
lonelyI'm losing my grip on sanity ( Read more... )

regrets will fall today
our shields will fall today
hibernation for some time now
sleeping bears to wake at dawn
travel far to surf the sky
been bolted down and stepped onI couldn't help but cut tonight. SI is my savior. How perfectly sickening ( Read more... )

So, I'm in pretty good spirits today. Translated this means I haven't been thinking much yet. I'll try not to start now.

Chuck D spoke on campus last night. He raised some pretty good points. He's actually a really intelligent guy. Of course, he also had much to say about Bush and the war that made me angry, because I support Bush and the war. ( Read more... )

Angry and anxious. I feel like screaming, but I can't, so instead I played a rousing game of LET'S SLICE KATIE'S FUCKING ARM OFF.

Why? Because I'm not quite ready to accept the facts that:
(1) My mental state is forever damaged
(2) Nothing will ever be how I want it to be
(3) I can't control the people around me
(4) I will always ( Read more... )

looking for faces in the clouds
i got some friends i barely see
but we're all planning to meet
we'll lay in bags as dead as leaves
all together for eternityAnd I'm still sick of this. I don't understand what's so hard ( Read more... )

So, apparently I was so cold yesterday because I was coming down with a deadly virus. Goddamnit.
Figures, it matches my mood.

-- KT

When the faces in the photos stare with glass-eyed mystique
Tick, tick, tick, tock; I watch the clock for tenderness.

I slept all day. Alllll day.
And I'm so cold.I can't get warm. I'm wearing more layers than any human being should. There are seven -- count 'em, seven -- blankets on my bed, where I spent most of the day, but I was trembling and ( Read more... )

The "Blood Red Warning" that I pasted yesterday rings truer and truer as time passes. Last night Courtney asked me why I buy first aid stuff and Bic razors pretty much every other trip we make to Walmart. What am I supposed to say to that? I just brushed it off like Rita shaves too much and isn't very good at it, and then changed the subject ( Read more... )