Lots on my mind right now. I'm attempting once again for the 500th time to try to lose weight. I'm feeling the pressure even more because the wedding is only about 6 months away..and I weigh the heaviest I've ever been. For as motivated as I have been in the past to lose weight, its very simple for me to say... "OK.. I'm going to eat well and ( Read more... )

It's funny how I only feel the need to write in this thing when I feel like shit. So I'll start out with some positive things. We've moved into our new house. Everything is settled for now, although we don't really have much furniture. We set the date for our wedding on September 17th, 2011. I bought my wedding dress last Saturday. Everyone seemed ( Read more... )

I suppose now is a good time as any to update a few things going on in my life. Feeling incredibly down the last few weeks despite good things going on in my life. Brian and I purchased a house a few weeks ago. We are waiting for everything to be finalized. Closing date is supposed to be December 19th. Not sure if we'll be moving in before or ( Read more... )

What's funny is I have so many new things going on in my life, yet feel like I have nothing to say here at all. Go figure...

So for the fourth time in the last 2 months at work (and only at work does this happen!) I've been asked by patients if I'm pregnant. This last time after I said no, the lady goes, "well you need to start working that belly down then,huh?". So after this fourth time, I've finally decided I'm sick and tired of being asked if I'm pregnant. I gotta ( Read more... )

It's hard to explain what I have been feeling lately. In some sense, I feel like I should be so thrilled about the happenings in my life right now. Graduated from school. No more homework. New job. Engaged. However, life still somehow feels stagnant ( Read more... )

Missing him more than usual today. I can never wait to sleep so the possibility of dreaming might bring me closer to you.

sometimes I don't even know who I am anymore.

I miss you.

I haven't updated this thing in quite a while. But I think its time that I do.  This may not be long as I may not be able to handle writing anything lengthy at this point.  I was told Sunday evening by a friend that Steven had passed away.  I actually, had first heard about it by the facebook group made in his behalf. My heart sank when I saw it ( Read more... )