Lucky me, I found out the man you would turn out to be. Strange encounter, never expected to see you again. At this point I wish I hadn't, on the other hand my curiosity wouldn't have been satisfied. "The universe works itself out," you said. I suppose it does. But when is the next revolution? I am waiting to see the dead bodies lying there ( Read more... )

Before my fall I rode a white horse, roamed the earth alone. Lonliness never will feel gratifying again. Darkness evokes fear, fear of the unknown, but I lived in bliss.

All of my plans tonight failed. I ended up staying home. Why I post this you ask? Because it is has been a long time since I have stayed home. I am reaching my goal.

There was someone that I was running from. I ran and ran until I realized that I had escaped. I strolled along carelessly, and when I least expected it, I found him. I know that if I don't keep running, it will lead to my death. Perhaps death is inevitable.

Death changes many things. If only there was a way to save innocence. I almost cried when Griet's sister died.

The last couple of weeks I have felt exploited as a sex object.

Every time I've tried to find a younger guy as something other than friends, I encounter rejection.

Who am I lying to? I am a jealous person. I has taken me a long time to realize that I am not ok with seeing a person, that is fucking around on the side. I also had to get over the social stigma of jealousy. I have cut off all of my "buddies"; no more friends with benefits. I am looking for someone that is interested in something more than ( Read more... )

I never do this, and I think I owe it to myself. I met a wonderful guy tonight. He is smart, motivated, and cute. Oh ya, and my age. Now, does this ever happen to me? NO. I am over my daddy complex.

Back on my feet. It was time for me to wake up from the daze that I had fallen into. I still have to even out the pumps on the pavement, but I am fine.