Mad Girl's Love Song ( Read more... )

i find myself at a fork in the road, i know which direction i should go in, but i have yet to find out if i have the strength to break away from my current path...

i used to sing a song at the top of my lungs, "if it makes you happy, it can't be that bad, if it makes you happy then why the hell are you so sad." i never really listened to the words i was belting as i would lie on my bed, head dangling over the edge, and the phone glued to my ear, my best friend shouting the same words in sync with mine over ( Read more... )

i went on a date tonight. his name is brian, and he's everything that nick is not. brian is driven, smart, sweet, and has a sense of innocence about him ( Read more... )

It's funny how much sitting in the sun can make the rest of the world just fade away. For the first time in too long i felt like there are no rights and wrongs, nothing existed further than my eyes could reach, there was only me and the ground i was sitting on. I wish life could always feel so simple. there was nothing else. and above all there was ( Read more... )

the same song was playing. The same fucking sappy love song that i almost believed in that night i decided to listen to my heart and tell my head to fuck off. i was going to see him; the one who had been crouching in the back of my mind for months, knowing all along that some day i'd let him remerge. the one with the black eyes ( Read more... )

i don't know what's wrong with me. i don't know what's wrong with HIM. how is it that he always manages to make the world as i know it come crashing down on me? i should hate him. i should have hit him. i should have screamed. i should have cried. but all i wanted was for him to kiss my forehead and crush me against him like he always does. i don' ( Read more... )

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i feel like i'm on fire in the most wonderful way imaginable.

i'm a liar. i'm a liar with my actions. i'm a liar with my words. i lie to myself, and those around me. i don't lie for self gain. i don't lie to avoid trouble. i lie so i can convince myself that i want what everyone else does. that i'm in fact capable of having it ( Read more... )