I think one of my biggest problems writing in this thing is that i feel i cant write in it unless its long and descriptive but maybe not anymore, maybe i should care less, maybe not all my thoughts are worth throwing away simply because they wouldnt fill up any space in my little sisters jean pocket or take up anymore time while im shaving so then ( Read more... )

i dont know whats wrong with me today i couldnt help feeling anxious with a side of extreme irritation all day. i snapped at my sister simply for tapping me on the shoulder once i snapped at lunch when i said i really wanted to leave i couldnt even focus on eating because by the time the food got there i was ready to jet and go home not even when i ( Read more... )

its weird because lately i feel like im a stranger in another state who has no friends and doesnt know where the hell anything is because theres really nothing to know about your surroundings anyway, not that its a bad feeling just a little strange because its literally just a half hour drive to the middle of nowhere where someone decided to put a ( Read more... )

lately every phone call and text message is makeing me want to throw away my phone because i seriously see no need for it anymore its call after call and because people want to be selfish or think they are so damn special they can be exclusive and not answer their phone well why the hell do you have one? or even worse is when you call someone they ( Read more... )

Lately no matter what i wear or how i do my hair or who i'm with or how much sleep i get (which is not much lately) i just feel really ugly i cant shake the feeling that i shouldn't be walking around during the day time because of how ridiculous i look every time i look in the mirror i feel like im slowly decaying before my very eyes that if i look ( Read more... )

Weirdest thing ever to inspire me to write and really random that this was going through my head but im watching family guy where peter feels like he cant remember a time he wasnt spending it with lois and therefore feels like he missed out on a lot of his younger "free spirit" years so he asks death to take him back to when he was 18 so peter ends ( Read more... )

its really strange because lately i've been having these dreams where i'll end up going to mexico and it always ends up horribly take for instance i go to TJ with jesse and his friend alise and we are trying to find the club but stumble inside this weird apartment building we walk into this room and it turns out to be someones house he comes in and ( Read more... )

I've really come to miss performing and although i still perform with some of the greatest and talented people i have ever met its just not the same i miss my frist passion which has always been singing. even now i have always been doubtful of my abilitites in all other areas and i know the saying "there will always be someone better" but everytime ( Read more... )

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today was a really weird day for whatever reason i got up late and not wanting to, work seemed tedious and i didnt want to deal with anyone, i felt sedated almost i even didnt want to go to dance tonight in fact i was kind of dreading it which is weird because you would think after having such a strange day that i would just want to release all of ( Read more... )