you came up recently in a conversation.....i heard you went to jail because you thought you were invincible or maybe I'm giving you too much credit because thinking was never your strong suit. I have never wished you ill, but i don't wish you well and no matter what i do and how i try to put it in my head i cant help but say over and over that you ( Read more... )

"you can change your life"..... thats all it said and still it meant so much to me.....so much that i stared in the mirror not at myself but at change for 10 minutes contemplating exactly what i wanted to be looking at not just physically but mentally and spiritually......i dont know who you are or why you wrote it but thank you......i believe you ( Read more... )

what an amazing way to start off the new year then with amazing company like beautiful and sheila and a whole month living away from SD in a whole new city with all different people and with the same amazing company? uhh there is no better way end of story. it turns out that my work has not sent me for the standard 2 weeks but instead for the full ( Read more... )

ok so i got tagged by like 3 people for this so i guess its time to stop prolonging it and just do it finally haha and to tell you the truth 16 never sounded so big anyway here come the rules........

BAM!
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose 16 ( Read more... )

i spend most of my time in my room lately in the dark with just the light from my computer and maybe the TV behind me while i try and distract myself with countless pointless projects on the computer or maybe with my head buried in a book. its getting hard forcing a smile and pretending that im ok in front of my loved ones so the less time i spend ( Read more... )

I feel like an idiot ( Read more... )

i realiuze that i truly have a lot to be thankful for this year and what has really shown me just exactly how lucky i am is that sadly this year i know a handful of people that didnt have anyone to spend thanksgiving with which would be a first for me ever ive always known everyone to go somewhere or be with someone but i literally had someone ( Read more... )

i feel like i just got stabbed and i cant breathe because just like when you say you care about me you've left me breathless except now the butterflies in my stomach have filled my throat and the cloud i was sitting on has started raining the thunder is too loud to hear anything other than what i don't want to hear. This teeter toter has broken ( Read more... )

in all of my retail experience i have noticed that holidays bring the crazies out as if the holiday itself calls out to them to come reek their awkward aggressiveness unto people that just want to have a normal monday or maybe it was the full moon that had everyone being all weird and although im a strong believer in energy flow and all that other ( Read more... )

i guess the stress finally got to me and i definitely lost control of myself to my emotions i couldnt hold it in and as much as i dont like to cry in front of people let alone my dad i couldnt hold them back anymore and i simply burst into tears because i really and honestly just didnt want him to be disappointed in me in any way or form i mean ( Read more... )