not every day can be filled with adventure and excitement ( Read more... )

that's what dating Ben is like. This sucks because he is amazing. I can do better and am going to. The day of the eccentric tortured artist bullshit is over. Time to get a job and get back to real life. Fuck you for saying a bunch of bullshit that contradicted everything you said last time. Then have the nerve to think I would invite you to my ( Read more... )

to a very long stay. so i will be moving as of June 1st to another apartment with a new roommate. leaving 1131 Mcdonald and all it's craziness behind. it was a good 3 years, i got a lot out of it. thom and i's relationship was mostly crap, but i'm here and i think it was where i was suppose to be. i have never had a plan or ambition for myself in ( Read more... )

i slowly become. i dream of the day i learn to stop from mouth from saying every god damn thing that comes into my head. i don't deem myself creepy as much of a spazz. ok well that is out of the way and we will segway into things that are generally related to this. last night as i sat alone at 2 am listening to "Fresh Air" podcasts playing mario ( Read more... )

bad: i am jobless again. i hate new york i have never had problems finding a job so much as in this stupid place. while i was away in vermont trying to wallow thom got hit by a cab. he was in the hospital for 5 days and has been pretty lousy since then. between his surgery scar and wound from where then he's bone was sticking out. so he wont need a ( Read more... )

i lost my job ( Read more... )

i got a job.
i have sent off all my financial papers for FAFSA.
i roasted a chicken.
pointless.
my v day was spent being very everyday.
i have to reapply to college they lost my application.
that's not a good sign.
now if i just get going to the gym i'll be on a good roll.

i am over new york. i just am. i am homesick. i miss friends. i miss any kind of company honestly. thom just got relocated to far off harlem that's an hour an half commute on to his already 10 hour plus day. i am so sick of trying to make this work for me. fuck.

you. i did.