There's alot of schools of thought on this, espescially if you consider music thoughts. I don't, but there it is ( Read more... )

 Honestly not a whole lot has changed since my last post, but I don't like to stay quiet for too long. I'm trying to diet, again, as usual. I hate dieting. There was a time when I went for a hike after eating to keep the food from shooting down to my...well, you know. Now that I live in the middle of the city, though, walking is allot more  ( Read more... )

I've not been going to see my therapist, and I know that's bad, but I feel...just torn apart. Some days I curse myself for feeling feminine. I see other people who claim to be transgendered, but who turn out to be either in a mid-life crisis, or simply find cross-dressing erotic. The first I understand to a point, but when you've lived as long as ( Read more... )

If you asked me this time last year who my main supporters were, I'd have listed two people. Today, the same thing is true, only one of the names has changed. And that's something I didn't expect. Recently, someone I thought was a friend did something...well, typical of them, actually. It was entirely in character, but it rubbed me the wrong way. ( Read more... )

....in just about every sense of the phrase. I'll be on the net again soon, at least that's the plan. We'll see. Unfortunately, my gender issues haven't really improved much since I've been gone. I've been incredibly depressed lately, and questioning myself allot. I feel under a great deal of strain, and I'm afraid if I can't figure out a way to ( Read more... )

So far I've only discussed transgender issues. Which is fine, it's primarily the reason I created this journal. But part of understanding who you are, gender or otherwise, is understanding your emotions. The strongest and I believe most complex emotion is love. Of course, science can explain it as a chemical reaction to visual and other stimulus, ( Read more... )

That's one year and two days. My son has been alive this long, and I can't even tell you how bittersweet that is. When I was seven, I'd had a dream where I was a mother. Now that I've been a father for a year, I can truly say it's filled with it's own set of wonders, but I still feel like I've been cheated ( Read more... )

I thought I'd take this opportunity to explain my view on transgender ( Read more... )