hello journal. i was just suddenly overcome with the urge to share with everyone how astounded i am at the people in my life. every day i am amazed at how much my family and friends mean to me. anyway, this is just to let everyone know that i think you are all wonderful people, even the ones who don't read this. everyone is so beautiful, ( Read more... )

this is so not how i imagined spending my first christmas break home from college. don't get me wrong, i've had some good times since i've been home, but working 40 hours a week and not having a car renders me virtually useless. i feel like a burden ALL THE TIME. at the end of the day, i feel left out and lonely, which is my own fault because it's ( Read more... )

I feel like the past few times I've written in this journal, I've been sad and anxious and kind of out of it. But I just needed to mark the occassion because yesterday and last night were the best times I've had in a while. You know those times when you just can't stop smiling? When you feel the need to tell everyone you see that you are in one of ( Read more... )

We lay on our backs, perfectly still, with our heads barely touching. We can see our breath, watch it carry our warm summer memories up through the power lines and tree branches, into the cold October sky. And only we know the truth, that nothing is ever lost or broken. Everything is right where we left it, waiting patiently for us to come home and ( Read more... )

Everytime I eat Easy Mac (which is a lot), I think about Sparkle Atmosphere and The Land of Do It! and our mexican blanket and trying to play it cool while Kayla's dad is in the kitchen with me. Hahahahahahahahahahahaha ( Read more... )

I AM GOING TO ASHEVILLE TOMORROW TO SEE MY BEST FRIEND. I could cry I'm so happy ( Read more... )

I'm sitting in my own living room, and I feel so out of sorts. I've been on the verge of something devastating since I began counting the mile markers for Charlotte. I walk these familiar halls, these familiar roads, and I only breathe the air of the summer we claimed and the town we loved. I woke up this morning, so anxious and excited to lay eyes ( Read more... )

This morning, Julia woke me up from a dream where I was holding a tiny kitten, and she laughed and made fun of me for having that dream, and for a second I forgot that I was 200 miles away from home and I could swear I heard her say "Let's go to Coffeeworks." I am really excited about going home this weekend. I miss Charlotte! I love Wilmington, ( Read more... )

I have class in an hour. African Religions, who knew? It will be my first college class and I am kind of scared but not really. I am sitting in a dorm room and wearing a UNCW sweater and listening to the voices of my neighbors as they walk by and say "heyyy" and yell at each other and sometimes we laugh and write weird things on each others' doors ( Read more... )

I suddenly feel so incredibly fucking sad. I can feel myself crumbling, I can feel it all falling apart. I said goodbye to Sara Veale today and I can already feel myself missing these familiar shapes. I can't help feeling like I'm overreacting, while justifying these hysterics with such empty logic. Today, my dad held my hand while we drove and I ( Read more... )