been thinking a lot. reading keri smith's blog archives, and it's almost like a self help guide for the artist. i think i need to start writing in a paper journal a bit more. i used to have a callous on my finger from writing so much... and now it's gone, from laziness. from typing. i miss using a pen ( Read more... )

i've been thinking about lent. i haven't observed lent since i was a kid, but i'm contemplating taking the 40 day challenge. not for religious reasons, obviously... it's more about seeing if i am able to be that disciplined. i've been doing a lot of indulging recently. indulging in everything... i don't know, i just don't feel like i'm setting a ( Read more... )

notes on this week ( Read more... )

tomorrow is eleanor's birthday. she will be two years old. she is perfect and i can't believe she is my daughter most days. i baked 36 cupcakes today in her honour ( Read more... )

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we got the house. we got the house. oh my god, we got the house. i'm freaking out.

edit: thanks everybody. people can come visit us now... we'll have space!

so we are officially looking for a house. we've seen 3 and we've had someone out to value our place. we've booked 3 more houses to view. seen a financial advisor. someone else is coming out to give us a second valuation. things are happening ( Read more... )

something i want to remember...

reading eleanor books before bed, always twice, sometimes more. then she climbs into my lab and hugs me while i sing twinkle twinkle little star, my ear pressed against her head. she says "again, again!" so i sing again again.

in the spirit of documentation, i wanted to record the fact that i fainted last night. it was a very scary experience. tim had turned off all the lights before we head to bed and i hit my elbow on the dog gate. i've done this before, but for some reason this time the pain was much more intense. tim asked what happened and i remember saying "my ( Read more... )

okay i need to touch base and have a moment. i am having a week of terrible mood swings and mostly feel like wearing black hoodies and scowling at everyone. i think eleanor is having one of those weeks too. it's getting me down. this morning, i went into her room and she just wailed and said "noooooooooooooooo" when she saw me ( Read more... )