You feel dark in a false light
But that's all you know
You don't put up a fight
To shed a sliver of yourself
Open up yourself
Stuck with yourself -- stop living a lie
Inconsistencies, dishonesties thrive
within your will
A will to survive
A will to love
A will to lie.



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There ain't no rest for the wicked
Money don't grow on trees
I got bills to pay
I got mouths to feed
Ain't nothin in this world for free
I know we can't stop now
No we can't roll back
Even though we wish we could
No there ain't no rest for the wicked
Until we close our eyes for good



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Can't sleep
Can't dream
Thinking of you
Remembering us
Questioning why
The truth doesn't always set you free

Bound by dreammares of us
Paralyzed by the memory of you
Emotionally stuck in time
A slave to the past

I just want to be free
Too weak to rescue myself
So I wait.



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Don't think about him
Don't think about it
Don't contemplate change
Shoulda. Coulda. Woulda.
Is never going to be enough
To change the past. Or present.
He is never going to be enough
Of a man -- to change. Period.
Never forget that...



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Purging into a sea of darkness and despair
My world gets black
My heart sinks and my soul feels empty
Loneliness and sadness are my only sadistic comforts
Depression looms over me like a distant future
My life is devoid of life
My love is devoid of love
I am devoid of me
I don't know who I am anymore
Most importantly, I know why.



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Las vegas or Austin-? how did this happen?



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Whoever says money doesn't buy you happiness is a fucking liar. and obviously rich.

We, the unwilling,
led by the unknowing,
are doing the impossible
for the ungrateful.
We have done so much,
for so long,
with so little,
we are now qualified to do anything
with nothing.
-Mother Teresa

I'm looking for words that were so well rehearsed--but I can't find them any where.

It used to scare me but not anymore. It's a maze.



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