11 hours until i'm knocked out on the operating table. i think im getting kinda nervous. i dont wanna be sore and helpless, expecially at home with loud people and guests who will be stuffing their faces instead of giving a shit about me. oh well im use to it. but hopefully i wont be in too much pain or spitting up blood or not waking up after.... ( Read more... )

wow so i had my first pass out experiance yesterday...and no alcohol was involved. it was scary. everything went blury and i fell off of the counter i was sitting on (at a meeting for hollywood) and now i have a big lump on my head. it was kind of embarrasing, waking up with everyone hovering around you. lets just hope that doesnt happen again!

I'm an idiot that makes stupid decisions sometimes....

I'm Sorry. :(

im getting so burned out. and i barely ever even have time to get online and write in this, but i will when i can ( Read more... )

I've never had someone be so nice to me and do so much for me until now....why? i love it, but i dont deserve it.

enough of the pathetic stories in my life. I think everythings getting much better (except car lol). Didn't really do anything tonight other than watch a movie and talk....and get scared by a psycho girl...hah. But I had a good time, so thats a plus! :)

i hate my car. I have bad luck. yesterday my tire decided to blow out on me while at work delivering! right by a ditch too. so this guy chris that i work with came and rescued me and took me to my house to take a tire off of my other shitty car, then went back to put it on my grand am. but the stupid jack collapsed and my car landed on it and my ( Read more... )

I am a bitch. Why do I lead people on when I don't even like them like that? He's a super sweet guy, but I'm just not feeling it. I want to meet someone and just click, but i dont think i can. Maybe it's because of Rob, maybe it's just me. I don't know. But I hate myself right now and hate how I feel.

Today was Sarah W's 20th birthday. So we went to a place I can not talk about because it is illegal and dont want to get people in trouble. But yeah I had a few drinks, and became annoying and called some people. I'm truely sorry to those I annoyed and woke up. But that just means you can get even. If I have to get up early, u can call me and keep ( Read more... )

Wow, what a night. Last night Sarah and I went to Alyssa's in Rochester. Craziness. each of us started out with a fifth of Malibu. Finished about 1/2 then went to Clutch Cargos. Some guys are just sick. They grab you just when you walk by. But I got this Albanian to buy me a beer. Ditched him to find Sarah who was MIA and WASTED. Alyssa and I were ( Read more... )