yeah, i am a little disterbed. but i can get over it. its no big deal...right? and if u are gonna ask me, don't, because i will kick your ass.

ok, this title officially fits. I'm so CONFUSED! I don't know if I'm happy or sad. Of course I think thoughts and make myself sad often, but I also get that feeling of being really happy and feel good about myself, which I need to feel more often, because I like it. But when they crash it confuses me. I don't know what I want, or what to do or ( Read more... )

I DONT GET IT! Isn't it enough to already feel like shit, but for people to IM me out of the blue and try to make me even more depressed? ok, first of all you don't do that to someone under the influence and already sad....you know how much worse that makes someone? and how often that can happen and you never see them again? SO WHAT DO YOU WANT?! ( Read more... )

Some people just always make you feel stupid and worthless, so i always wondered if I really was or not because thats how I was treated. maybe it's not like that......

Sometimes I'm glad and know it's probably for the best, sometimes I just don't know what to do with myself. It hurts and I'm confused. I have mixed thoughts and feelings and try to think what I want and hope that if I think something long enough I will believe it. Kinda like a lie that you tell over and over and eventually think it's really true. ( Read more... )

well, went to get my blood drawn today, testing for mono I guess. hung out with sarah w and travis. sarah y and sam stopped by. havent seen sam in forever. it was fun. we have to have a birthday party for you now spammy! sorry but that name will never get old :)....then i got my ass beat in chess. i need more practice. now im home and online ( ( Read more... )

UGH. I'm tired, of everything. I'm sick, my tonsils hurt, and my uterus hurts. my contractions keep getting worse and worse. and no one loves me and wants to take care of me. I'm pathetic. I will just die on my bed alone then nothing will hurt anymore ( Read more... )

so school startedd 2 days ago. I've only had one class so far, english 102, but I dont think I will like it. I'm not a fan of writing papers about boring subjects. I like 101 alright, but we got to pick topics and have fun with it. Oh well, I will do it and I will do good! I have medical terminoligy today at 3. It's 55 minutes long, what will I ( Read more... )

horrible,fun, terrifying. that explains canada ( Read more... )

Yay, Canada in 2 days. I'm not even going to drink a whole lot, but it will be fun getting to hang out with rob sarah and kyle all night. I've decided to cut back on drinking. I get wierd and think I need more when I really dont. I dont really get sick, just annoying and stupid. I dont want to be like that anymore, I dont like it. A few social ( Read more... )