Beauty is when you still have Hope in love when your Love is Dead ( Read more... )

i knew it was coming..i knew, but i didnt think it was going to be so soon..i didnt think it would be tonight. thats what i get for being right. i knew that dream meant something, no one else wanted to believe me, but they all knew. i dont know how to go on. its not fair..i get to live the rest of my life, and he wont. i dont even want to live, i ( Read more... )

gahd! I dont even know anymore. Im so scared..worried. i don't know whats going to happen to him. last night i had a dream that his name was in the papers...in the obituaries. dreams like that always come true for me. i dont know what to do...what to think. I love him so much, and if i lose him..i'll have lost everything. then sometimes i wonder, ( Read more... )

its been a good day. besides the 5 hours i was "learning" about god. hes like "god has adopted you as his child" and all i could think was "yeah, that'll be the day ( Read more... )

maybe everyone's right..maybe I don't know what love is. maybe I'm just lying to myself. Maybe thats it, my life is just one big lie...theres just no truth, and thats all i've been looking for. one truth. maybe solitude is my only remedy. i'm just meant to be alone..and thats that. Its no one's fault but my own. I blame no one. Blaming someone for ( Read more... )