I dreamt I died

I dreamt I died

I dreamt I died

Again like most taxing nights

It had been so long my mind filled in the blanks

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So many possibilities to never go home

I am a visitor here

I don’t understand permanence

I was stumbling through the swamp of my mind’

Never knew where the path would align

Or where the sun would shine

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escuinclaHome movies project against the backside of the gold in my eyes. The slideshow memories flutter in black and white and the hum of my dehumidifier fools me into thinking it's the Pacific. After two years of keeping her at a distance, I have finally confront the part of me that was afraid to return to California.

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Livejournal,

Slightly shocked you are still around.

So am I.

Reading my past entries reminds me where I came from and more importantly who I am.

Thank you.

 It’s good to be in love.

Not the twisted, self-destructive love.

We both know it’s real and it scares the hell out of us both....

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Now I understand why i was single for so long. I waited for my perfect fit. Please, please don’t let me screw this up. 

Have you ever tasted the thick pungent flavor of punch drunk love? The older I grow the more I realize my punch drunk love was a young grape, much to young for proper taste. Have my premature experiences turned me cold?

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I have become engulfed with sadness, anger, disbelief and hopelessness. Everyone around me is pointing their grubby little fingers like a modern day witch hunt. Everyone is lying to protect their own asses. She thinks she knows exactly who I am and how I feel. How can one possibly know me when we've drifted so far apart. I can't remember a time ( Read more... )

I drown in disbelief. i've lost many friends this month.

as time passes i realize my mistakes, and those of my once dependent friends. And it makes no difference..

I am who I am because of the bullshit. And despite where I end up; Miami has my heart. I will leave this place with affection and respect, but not once will I look back.

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today i am much better than all the yesterdays put together. i am stable, independent and happy. i just miss my art.
here's to the new year. let it be better than the last.
let there be more art filled moments.

the sky is the limit,
atleast for you.

you don't even know me
yet so quick to judge.

does it make you feel good?
to strut your lawyer ass around
do you feel like a man with
coke grabbing onto your upper lip.

you say im too abstract,
i was a fool to think you'd understand.

twenty six doesn't mean shit to me.