Comments | esinator87: on not being able to sleep and craving a poptart (strawberry) at 3 am

esinator87

on not being able to sleep and craving a poptart (strawberry) at 3 am

Oct 24, 2006 03:03

I could have accomplished so much today, and I did not, and I am ashamed. There is so much to do.

But many questions are keeping me awake. How much of what happens in my life is a product of what I want? How much is due to what other people want for me, and how much is due to what they want for themselves? How much of my fate is pure chance?

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paperscout October 24 2006, 08:13:59 UTC

"How much of what happens in my life is a product of what I want? How much is due to what other people want for me, and how much is due to what they want for themselves? How much of my fate is pure chance?"

I just spent the last two months attempting to write an essay on that very idea. Believe me, it's impossible to even try to come to any sort of conclusion...

But if you do, let me know.

esinator87 October 25 2006, 07:26:59 UTC

I certainly will let you know.

doe__eyes October 24 2006, 21:34:23 UTC

esin, I am afraid that is comment has absolutely nothing to do with your entry, but I feel like I really need to ask: you live in a single room, right? what's that like? sounds like a ridiculous question, especially since I've always had my own bedroom until I started college. but it just seems like a living situation that I can't exactly comprehend; college is such a social environment, especially in the dorms, and I remember thinking that if it weren't for the fact that I had a nice and friendly roommate, I never would have made friends (so many and so quickly, that is; I'm sure I would have made friends eventually) at the beginning of first semester last year. I guess it helps that you are going to school someplace where you already knew some people. but still, I can't see myself living in a single...ever. sometimes I do find myself wishing to high heaven that I didn't live in a freshman dorm (still) and that I didn't have to deal with a roommate, but I still don't think that I would actually want to live alone. I've been thinking ( ... )

esinator87 October 25 2006, 07:26:34 UTC

I really value my personal freedom, I suppose. And even though I love people, I'm one of those who are much better at loving humanity than loving my neighbor. I'm not good at living with people in intimate quarters, unless it's my sister. Also, I do have the advantage of going to college with some of my closest friends, who actually live across the street from me, so I haven't really been socially isolated without a roommate. I'm also in Plan II, and there are only 200 kids in the freshman class, so there's a fair bit of intimacy. Without Plan II, I imagine I would feel much more lost here at UT.

swisstiger October 25 2006, 23:39:40 UTC

totally off topic but i thought you might be interested in knowing: Men, Women, and Children had everything stolen from them on a tour stop. There's an entry on my friends list about them if you want to check it out.
lov you tons!

esinator87 October 26 2006, 04:23:27 UTC

That's terrible! I can't believe it. Poor guys.

soundthesuburbs October 27 2006, 05:12:46 UTC

I hope The Decemberists lifted your spirits! I am in the middle of reading a fascinating article on them and their new record. I cannot wait to see you and pretend I live in Austin again.

♥&austin is the new morocco

your questions would serve as great dicussion/debate, although I am afraid my answers may sound silly online.