it's such a wonderous feeling when everything fits perfectly righ together, when life's smacking someone else across the face and not you for once. i'm blessed to be in the right place at the right time, with almost everyone that i love within walking distance. but, what would we do with ourselves if everything was perfect? i think we might ( Read more... )

college begins, again. or rather should i say that it starts anew? a new campus, roommate, boring friends, and horrible food. i can't wait! only 1/10th of me is still excited about the prospect of doing this shit all over again in a VERY small room. oh lord, why couldn't i have been content with my 350 sq. feet ( Read more... )

it's official, my first full week in the working world is almost over. it's nice to actually have a real pay stub for once and not get paid under the table. but i'd trade silly orthopaedic shoes and a bad pair of tights to haul trash again and not even get paid for it. not that i'm saying jc penney doesn't have it's advantages--all three of my ( Read more... )

i took mr. yao back to g'ville today, which of course meant a customary visit to campus, even though i swore i would never go back except to kidnap portia ( Read more... )

i think it's rather ironic how one must make an effort to be happy--being miserable is so much easier, and at times, loads more pleasant than giggling. thankfully to the wonderous powers that be, i only have three and a half more weeks here, and then it's off to who knows where ( Read more... )

so, i'm starting to pack up my books, which is sad--because now the bookcase will be staring at me lonley and naked--and i start to think about not leaving, about staying and gritting my teeth for four years. i could do that, i've spent most of my life like that--just making the best out of shitty stituations, or not making the best, maybe just ( Read more... )

so six weeks and counting until usc is a blip on my resume. funnily enough i'll most likely end up at winthrop--it's an easy fix, much simpler than trying to get myself into the VA anytime soon. umw is a great school, one of the ten in the nation that actually offers historical preservation as a major--but it's so much damn money. oh well, i can ( Read more... )

i think i'm certified crazy--like the pill popping, Fight Club, i-think-i'm-a-pengiun sort of crazy. i guess we'll find out on monday, but it would make things SO much easier to have some sort of chemical imbalance to blame this silliness on ( Read more... )

after thinking about switching schools last weekend and talking with my dad about it (he said it was totally cool, along with a few specs about price and whatnot). so i've allowed myself to feel much better about being stuck--knowing that i can always make anywhere work (i mean come on, i survived two horrible high schools, one of which i still ( Read more... )

i actually miss having a schedule--the blocked out squares of time where i knew i could count on things. that way i could afford to be spontaneous and do stupid things. but now, i'm being pulled in fifty different directions and trying to get some handle on what i remember normalcy was my first two years in high school. it's like banging my head ( Read more... )