so much has happened. some good, some indifferent, all of it worth it. nothing really seems to phase me anymore. i'm not sure if that means i'm jaded or really, really cynical. well, almost nothing phases me. i don't let it; try not to. sometimes it gets to be far too much. it's then when i have to walk away. physically, mentally. either leave the ( Read more... )

the depression comes in waves. one day i'm fine; shit rolls off me like water. then, a couple days later, something happens and i get in this horrible funk. then it's over ( Read more... )

i don't update this thing anymore. maybe i should start. i will; right after these words from our sponsors.

he doesn't know where to start; he has no idea where his life went awry. not to say it's miserable or a complete failure, but it's damn close. he supposes it all started when he was younger. when everything was given to him, no questions asked, on a silver fucking platter. he never asked anyone for anything, but they still "helped out" or "did it ( Read more... )

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Nevermind. I thought it was something to get excited over, but it was just a mirage. Kind of expected, though.

I'm still the backup; nothing more, nothing less.

I just wish this shit would just make sense, for once.

Things got better, for some reason or another. It's all about time and righting myself; levelling it out so I don't have to worry about anything, monetary related. I got something back I've for which I've longed. I've actually "let go" for two hours recently; two hours that seemed as if it were an infinity ( Read more... )

my life is going. not exactly where i wanted to be, but i did it to myself. if only i had acted sooner, no?

yeah.

if only.

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