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The Story of the Bike
GT loves mountain bikes. Harking back to some boyhood hobby that he wishes he was still fit enough to do properly. GT had 4 bikes stolen from his parents garage when he still lived with them so claimed on the insurance, and with the lots and lots of money he received in compensation he payed off a small amount of the credit card and then bought a £ ( Read more... ) -
Author?
I want to become a writer but have no idea how to begin.
I mean i have ideas for books, but it seems so over-whelming all of a sudden.
Im feeling stuck.
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Why
I cant trust him.
He's back in contact with her.
I was a fool for getting my hopes up.
Thinking he could actually change.
I feel like such a mug. M.U.G
Fucking MUG.
I cant afford to get my own place.
my wage barely covers the cheapest studio flat out there.
Why????????
What am I gonna do?
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Sex
I know I'm only 23, but I feel like I've kind of given up on sex. It's never been fulfilling, sometimes it feels more like a chore than anything else.
This really isn't anything to do with Tripod. He's great, and he doesn't get his nickname from being an amateur photographer.
It's more about me. Perhaps I have some issues with it.
Perhaps I need a ( Read more... ) -
Neurotic? Insecure?
So I went to the doctor yesterday about my 'panic disorder'.
She was actually a really nice doctor, she actually listened to me and didnt treat me like a basket case.
She gave me these pills to slow my heart down. Im not gonna take them.
They are a risk I dont want to add to my life.
I think I will take the other option, a few ssessions of CBT
Im ( Read more... ) -
Continued Musings
Those people, the ones who make a good couple, the ones who work, they dont have it any easier.
They go through the same shit everyone else does. They just don't let it get them down. Because they believe in each other.
Everybody seems to obssess about the romance. The fireworks, the sex, the 'meaningful things'.
That's the stuff you see in the movies ( Read more... ) -
Relationships
I think maybe there is such a thing as love.
Relationships aren't like on the TV or in the Movies.
I think it's easy to be someone's boyfriend or girlfriend. You can do that for years and years because it's easy.
It's when you take the next step you find out if it's right or not. Like moving in together. If it only lasts a few months it's not ( Read more... ) -
Wednesday 26th ₪ Better
Had a nice night last night up on the boat.
I love that boat. It's such a beautiful thing, I always feel calm and comforted when I'm there, no matter what is going on, It's just a serene awe-inspiring place.
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Tuesday 25th ₪ Blank
We had a chat last night.
I feel even less re-assured, even more lost and alone.
The only two things he did/said that made me feel better I told him to do.
I feel like im losing my mind over this.
When bad things happen they should just happen so you can grieve, get over it and move on.
I am just in some sort of limbo.
It shouldn't be this