Comments | estelle_getty: stay gold <3

estelle_getty

stay gold <3

Mar 05, 2007 01:31

I need to reconnect with the other 2/3's of my heart.

"Distance makes the heart grow fonder" is a simplified version of "distance makes the heart ache so terribly.. resulting in an unimaginable breakage, which in turn leaves the pieces to do nothing but meander around aimlessly and constantly reminisce of the loveliest 2/3's it has ever known (and ( Read more... )

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kwalker19 March 5 2007, 11:42:58 UTC

i definitely related to your lj post. the past few months i've been trying to follow my heart and my mind, and they tend to conflict sometimes. i hope everything works out for you--you're a wonderful girl. <3

estelle_getty March 6 2007, 04:03:49 UTC

Thank you very much. <3 I wish the same to you, as well.

jess_amyn March 6 2007, 03:41:51 UTC

I need to be me again, too. And for the first time in SO long I feel like I am getting there. Half way around the world, I am some how finding myself again. I was thinking about all of us the summer after senior year and we were so happy! And then these past three years have just piled so much baggage on us to obscure the happy go lucky, free spirited, carefree girls we were. I miss those girls and that happiness and I'm trying to get back to it by just letting go. Letting go of all the crap that has managed to jade me over the past couple years. When I'm negative and angry, I'm unhappy and I don't recognize that girl. And slowly I'm finding the lens I used to look through. I joined choir, I'm taking creative writing.. I forgot I loved those things. And I'm getting back to gold. And then I shall stay there. haha. I love and miss you so much!! Stay Gold reunion this summer will be bloody amazing. PS Come here.

estelle_getty March 6 2007, 04:11:02 UTC

Jess,

I am seriously such a mess. I can't even begin to tell you. Things with Dave are so fucked up. I have been apologizing to him non-stop and telling him that I regret breaking up with him, that it was a mistake I made because I was upset. He fucking booked a plane ticket to Florida and is going on vacation with his parents. And I seriously need him. I am going through such a hard time, and he is just telling me that he can't help me. I was fucking there for him when he had cancer. I was there for him during the hardest part of his life and he is abandoning me. I am a fucking mess. I am a hysterical mess. I seriously don't know what to do with myself. I'm sorry that I am sending you these emails/comments that don't make sense. Dave told me that without you and Steph I am all alone and I really am. Without you guys and my mom I have no one really.

I want to get back to gold so bad.

What the fuck is wrong with me.

<3