I'll tell you why....a lot of it is fear. Fear that I'll lose such an amazing guy, fear that in all my life I'll never find someone that I connect on every level with like we did. You say that it wasn't going that great, but a few fights isn't "not going that great" That's a healthy thing and that's how we communicate and learn from things that we ( Read more... )

it sucks when you cry every night before you go to bed, ya kno? and last night was the worst cuz i cried and then i fell asleep and then zach called me at like 5 in the morning...but it was 3 in the morning his time...and i guess that conversation went okay...we're still not getting back together right now, but there is a chance. who knows. i miss ( Read more... )

I feel like such a mess right now...This is the hardest break-up ever. Its like with Jeff I thought I was sad, but then a week later I met Chris and Jeff was nothing...and then when I broke up with Chris I was already over it...but with Zach its killing me. And I know I put on such a good front in front of everyone...I don't think anyone would be ( Read more... )

So...originally I thought this break up thing would be easy...but it really isn't. I think this is probably the first relationship that I was really, genuinely sad to end. And its no one's fault...it was actions and words from both of us. I talked to him yesterday...just to ask about the officialness of it all, and he said it wasn't forever and ( Read more... )

So me and Zach aren't going out anymore. I don't really know how to feel about it. We were together for 10 months so I dunno. I guess its been a long time coming...not really a long time but I knew it was gonna happen. I don't think me and him were happy...well I knew that I wasn't that happy but I was never sure about him and everytime I asked him ( Read more... )

i bought this book on astrology today at barnes and nobles that gives like the personality profiles of all the signs and i have always wanted to be a second grade teacher, right? and in the "career" thing it was all "whether the pisces woman is playing marbles with her second grade pupils...or...something" and i thought how fuckin crazy is that... ( Read more... )

last night was probably one of the most craziest nights i've had in FOREVER! well i used to live here when i was in 8th thru 10th grade and there was this girl michelle who was a year younger than me and we weren't like best friends we were acquaintances but i always looked out for her because she was younger and we went to the same church and our ( Read more... )

ok so apparently i think that "everyone" is a bitch according to the anonymous note leaver....because in my info it says "no one is my equal" ok sorry for stating my individuality and saying that there's no one else that is exactly like me...so fuck you whoever you are for making your god damned assumptions. i don't think everyone is a bitch and ( Read more... )

ok. so i have to set the record straight. hopefully you read this... you'll know who you are when i'm finished. on friday night when i told you that i didn't hate you or have anything against you, i wasn't just drunk and i wasn't lying, its true. this whole time has been a misunderstanding and i'll tell you why. the only reason i ever had anything ( Read more... )

AHHHH!!!!!!!!! prom plans are stressing me out b/c i can't find a dress and i looked everywhere in vacaville AND fairfield so if i don't find one tomorrow in san francisco i'm gonna go INSANE...god dammit...ahh heather where are you b/c we hella need you to plan our shit out b/c we don't even know where we're gonna eat!! can you believe it? ugh... ( Read more... )