We had a very interesting discussion today at lunch: How Senior Year is Pointless. Seriously, why can't they just let me graduate a year early?!? I filled all my credits already--well, except for Government--but honest to God, since I took AP English last year and passed, is it really necessary for me to take a fourth year of English, just because ( Read more... )

Dear Fate ( Read more... )

"I hate that book!"
"You hate 1984?!?"
"I hate the ending!"
[teacher interrupts] "It's not about the ending. It's about the ideas."
"Exactly."
"But it has such a sad ending!"
"Happy endings are stupid."
[teacher] "Even the ending of your autobiography?"
"My autobiography will have a sad ending. I die in the end."
[someone else] "And that's sad?"
"Yeah. I don ( Read more... )

I am so done with college applications. I still have two more to do; one is due tomorrow and here I sit, writing this incredibly pathetic essay. I don't care anymore. I'm screwed anyway because I did the stupidest thing.

I applied to two California state schools, right? Well, the SAT score reports were due on Dec. 01.
Only I didn't know that.
I ( Read more... )

Facade of Serenity

I wait for a resolution-an end-
Of my childhood long gone.
I await a destiny-a fate-
To determine the hazy future.
An absolution, a death, a new beginning
(of eternity?)

but the strangeness has not evaporated
from my still heart.
Here is a lull, a façade of serenity;
Could this be, tell me, oh God,
The eye of the storm?
Turbulent years of ( Read more... )

Hello!

I'm still alive. Isn't it great?

Well, I thought I'd update just for the sake of updating. I really don't know what to say. I wrote a bunch of poems yesterday and today (okay, three) all in my physics notebook because I was so bored. I was a bit depressed for the past two days. I'm not sure if 'depressed' is the right word, but you get the ( Read more... )

This is kind of a stupid, trivial entry but I do want to remember this, so here goes:

Birthday Presents
-keyboard (musical, not the computer kind)
-Aegis, Theatre of Tragedy
-An Elixir For Existence, Sirenia
-Epica, Kamelot
-The Black Halo, Kamelot
-One Cold Winter's Night, Kamelot
-State of Fear by Michael Crichton
-hair straightner
-necklace
-iPod Docking ( Read more... )

Ok, so right now, I'm downloading some Xandria and Lacuna Coil songs...

I had a bit of a melancholy mood a couple hours ago, as I was listening to "Wake Me Up When September Ends" by Green Day. Well, it is a depressing song but that sort of elevated my depression anyway.

It's cold!

So today I went to school and had a really bad day academically of ( Read more... )

Hey, remember that band I was obsessed about? Delain? (Was? More like still am obsessed).
Well, I couldn't find the CD anywhere that would ship to the US. So what did I do? I emailed the band. You know, with the email posted on their main website. And here's the awesome part:
They emailed back.

OMG that's so cool!

But the coolest part is:  the person ( Read more... )

Happy birthday to me
It's night and it's freezing
I'm too tired to care
So pain, please leave my lair...

Ok. That was pathetic. I know. *yawns* I'm going to go shower or something. Later.

~17